Friday, October 17, 2008

Wow...time flies!

I can't believe it's already Friday! Sorry I haven't checked in this week, but I'm still in "recharge" mode. It has been a long time since I've been able to spend so much time with my children, and I'm taking advantage of it. I never like to spend much time on the computer when my children are at home, because our computer is in the den, and it's usually too chaotic to concentrate, anyway. But we've had a lot of fun. I had my "fourth child", Sean, for seven days, and that was nice. I've also been doing a lot of reading...I've read the second and third book in the "Twilight" series since Tuesday. But this week has been full of highs and lows.

Highs:
I'm still totally on plan, even though temptation has crept in several times. I'm staying strong, and continuing to journal and stay within my points. I got past the constipation (I think it did have something to do with not getting the healthy oil and all my fruits and veggies in). I peeked at the scale this morning, and it had me at 309! Woo Hoo! This is the first time I've been under 310 since 2006. I got in a long walk on Tuesday (one hour), and planned another today but got sidetracked (I'll explain that later). Tomorrow should be nice out, and one more long day at the park for walking and letting the kiddos play will be great. Sunday, too.

Lows:
My husband told me this morning that he's sick of me, and as soon as we are financially stable he's leaving me. Our relationship has been stressed for quite some time, and I admit that I am also unhappy. But I know that a divorce will devastate my children. We've been together for nine years, and almost got a divorce in 2005. The story of my marriage is too long for this blog, so I won't hash out the details. But being married to my husband isn't easy. That's why it was a slap in the face for him to put the blame on me. I have not (and will not) eat away my pain as usual. I will stay strong and focused.

Seeing the "309" on the scale this morning made me happy. Only 10 lbs till I reach my first 10% goal and am under the 300 lb mark! NO ONE or NO THING will keep me from reaching that goal. I can do it!

4 comments:

carla said...

I am sending you thoughts of strength with your husband.

seen coming or not it is all EXHAUSTING and depleting (I have 2 close friends experiencing the same thing)

so proud of you for remaining positive.

Miz.

SeaShore said...

Good for you for staying strong! I'm sorry you are having to go through this with your husband.

Take care.

PS - Congrats for making 309 today!

Amy said...

Im sorry for what you are going through with your husband, I know its very hard I was divorced in '05 but I didnt have children, so you are in my thoughts in prayers. Congrats on the weight loss, I know its a great feeling when you get under 300. Im working towards that goal again.

Michelle said...

When I read this post I got really sad for you and your children. My husband did the same thing to me and left me and it was like a slap in the face to me as well. You and your children are in my thoughts and prayers!!
That is great that you are NOT allowing ANYTHING OR ANYONE to get in the way of your weight loss ...I love that way of thinking and that is what will get you to goal!!