Tuesday, December 2, 2008

I'm back...

...and desperately in need of help getting back on track. I'm sorry I haven't been blogging regularly, but with two jobs and school full time I'm going insane. I don't have time to BREATHE. I checked my email and have over 500 unread messages. I got so overwhelmed I just signed out and haven't signed back in. I'm barely keeping my head above water. I need to come up with a plan...not just for weight loss, but for health and sanity.

My 2nd job is wearing me out. My body feels like I've been involved in physical torture. My feet, legs, and back ache so bad. I know I'm just not used to standing/walking for 8 hours at a time, and I know my weight plays a big role in this. I try to look at the positive - great exercise. But the negatives are screaming at me - tired, sleepy, pain. I'll make it through, though.

Because my schedule is new and I haven't adjusted, AND there's been a holiday thrown in, my eating has been erratic, too. I haven't got on a scale this week, but I'm sure I've gained. My plan is to get back on track immediately, and make all this exercise I'm getting at work pay off! I walk all over the store the whole time I'm there. I'm also squatting a lot. It literally FEELS like I am constantly exercising for 8 hours. I don't see how the people on Biggest Loser do it.

The evenings I do have off twice a week, I go straight to bed when I get home. Some days I even have to take a pain pill because my muscles are aching so bad. My body is in shock, I think. It's frustrating because I know that this wouldn't be killing me if I were thinner.

SO - I have decided to get my ass in gear. There's no time like the present to get back on track. I WILL take the time to prepare, so I will not be tempted to make bad food decisions. Let me tell ya, I could quickly get addicted to Starbucks Frappuccino's. But besides the fact it's an expensive habit and I'm poor, they are also high in calories. Oh, did I tell you we also have a Pizza Hut in the store? And Taco Bell next door? See how easy it is for me to get tempted when I don't have a plan in place? So, I've got today and tomorrow to come up with a plan, because I don't work at Target again until Thursday.

I'm going to the store today to stock back up on my healthy food. Thank goodness that Thanksgiving is over. That is the only time during this season that food is an issue for me. I know I can breeze through Christmas and New Years as long as I don't start baking (and since I don't have time to I'm not worried). I WILL BE UNDER 300 LBS BY NEW YEARS! NO EXCUSES!

I also am CLAIMING the time to blog at least once per day. When I'm blogging, I'm on track. Now...off to the dreaded INBOX...

4 comments:

bbubblyb said...

You can do anything you put your mind to so just keep reminding yourself of that. I know a plan is key for me too at work. I don't know what food plan you're doing but a staple for me at work is almonds, yogurt and fruit. Good luck this week.

Mizz White said...

Welcome back. Do whatever you can to stay on plan...Its not how many times we fall, but how many times we get back up. Happy Losing!!!

Skye's the Limit said...

Hey Hollie, Mizz White said exactly what I was thinking! :o)

Take care!

Rosie said...

Hollie glad you're back... missed you my friend. You must of read my mind, I was about to spend you some snailmail (like weight watcher's leaders do when you miss a meeting)... lol.