Monday, December 8, 2008

It's MONDAY. Since I worked all weekend, I don't feel like it was a weekend at all. Sat. I worked from 3:30 p.m. to 1:15 a.m., then had to be back to work on Sun. at 10 a.m. until 5:30 p.m. By the time I went to the grocery, got gas, and fixed dinner it was after 9 p.m. I slept well, but woke up still tired. Thankfully, I'm off from my P.M. job until Thursday, so I'm going to take advantage of going to bed early those nights to catch up on my sleep. I'm still so achy - after I get off from work each night my legs and feet feel like they're gonna fall off. But I did figure out yesterday that if I take Ibuprofen before I go to work it makes it bearable.

I did pretty well this weekend eating-wise. Not great, but no binging. I woke up this morning with resolve to make THIS the week that I get back on the wagon for good. I got on the scale, and was pleased to see I've only gained about 5 lbs. This should be devastating, but considering how out of control I've been since before Thanksgiving, only 5 lbs gained is a GIFT! I definitely know all the exercise I get at work is helping.

I have also decided that I can't afford to renew my WW meetings for this At-Work session. I just don't have the money right now, and don't see it happening in the near future. Even with the extra job and my husband working, we are barely making ends meet. We got so far behind, that now everything is crucial, and the money can't come in fast enough. I pray that by the end of this month we can see clearly and be at least caught up on the major bills. To top it off, my mother has started acting nutty, and says she can't watch Kalela anymore. She said she needs to run errands, and she can't take Kalela with her, or something crazy like that? So that means we are now having to pay a babysitter that we can't afford, either.

I'm kind of bummed about the WW thing, especially since I'm super curious about the new program coming out. My plan is to journal and count points on my own, and try to follow it the best I can by myself. My friend who is also doing WW said she would be my personal leader, so I really appreciate that. I NEED to get back on track EVERY DAY! Not just a few days out of the week. But like I said before, I will NOT give up! I will start over every day if necessary!

6 comments:

bbubblyb said...

Hollie, I'm sorry things are so tough for you right now. I'm sorry too that you can't rejoin WW. I'm glad you have a friend that will help you though and it's great to hear you sound so positive with all that's going on. Hang in there. *hugs*

Skye's the Limit said...

Awe, I wish we lived near each other because we would love to babysit Kalela! And for free. I know how hard it is to find a decent and affordable sitter these days.

I think that is awesome that your friend is willing to help you out. What a wonderful offer.

I came across a wonderful quote that I often pass on to others. Tammey Burns was interviewed after doing a 5K. She had lost 377 pounds at that point, but she still wasn't at goal. The reporter asked her if she thought she would make it to her goal.

She told the reporter "Success isn't defined as how many times you fail; it's about getting up one more time!"

This was a huge wake-up call for me. Now I have it posted on my bulletin board!

carla said...

(love that quote Skye) *sigh* about the ww thing.
is there any way you could use the blogworld as your vast supportive accountability partner?

lean on us?

MizFit

skinnyhollie said...

Yes! I will definitely be leaning on the blog world from now on. I find everyone's success and failure so motivating and encouraging on this journey. We can do this!

Karyn said...

You have the right attitude and determination! One day, you'll suddenly realize you haven't 'started over' for a long time - you've just been making the right choices every day.

how nice that your friend is offering to keep you connected, so to speak, to WW while you cannot go to meetings!

Good luck in the next year!

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