Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Tossing the scale

Sometimes I really want to toss my scale out the window. It is a love/hate relationship, let me tell you. I have been doing VERY well since Saturday. I have really been sticking to the eat-every-three-hours schedule, and now, if I listen, my body will tell me when I am hungry. I have been eating wholesome food, lots of fruit and veggies, and tons of water. But - the scale is still not my friend.

I have really been trying to avoid sugar, but failed miserably yesterday when my co-worker plopped a bag of mini candy bars on my desk. The smell of chocolate hypnotized me and I was broke down. Then, I had a cupcake with my kids. THEN I had a few pieces of candy that I was stuffing Easter eggs with to send with my kids to school today. I was doing well today until that same damned co-worker threw chocolate in my face again! AGGHH! I only had a few small pieces, but it was enough for me to feel the sugar rush. So I came home and disposed of the few pieces that were left over from the Easter eggs I had to stuff for school last night - so it is GONE. But I know tomorrow is going to be another challenge since the kiddos all have Easter parties at school and will be bringing it home. I knew I should have waited for the sugar detox until after Easter, but hey... at least I'm getting practice.

Each time I am presented with a food that is within my points range, but has sugar or white flour, and I say no, I feel like I have triumphed. For example, I say no to chocolate milk every day. And the good school pizza today. And even small amounts of candy - I know I have points for them, but I do not need the sugar. I really doing a lot of planning to make sure I have meals and snacks at the right times that are healthy and balanced. I figure that as long as I keep trying, everything will even out. Now, I just need to let go of how those numbers on the scale are making me crazy.

I have been stepping on the scale every morning, and the numbers keep creeping up! WTF! OK - it is TOM, and I KNOW I used to gain as much as 10 lbs during this time, but for some reason I still expect to see the numbers go DOWN because I am eating well. I am not going to give up, though. I feel really good and my clothes keep getting looser, which I love. I FEEL thinner, so I know that's important. My self-confidence is soaring. But I just want to see that number! MizFit has a great blog today about the scale. I think I'm going to take her advice and stay away from it. She suggests using a pair of pants to gauge your progress. I just so happen to have this pair of linen Capri pants that I have been trying to fit into for three years...

5 comments:

Jules said...

Great job on the triumphant NO's :) It feels great when you can say no and mean it... not fake it :) I have friends who are what i call "pushers" they are those people who KNOW you are trying to lose weight and STILL bring you things like Chocolate even though you've told them your staying away from it. Like just because they are eating it, you have to. i actually have been emphatic with my "pushers" and this time they are listening and NOT pushing the crap I can't stay away from in my face.
Anyhow... Take heart. No time is better than now... and instead consider it a change from last year and next year will be even better. You're learning to get a grip and maybe just use the kids candy as a lesson for you and them. Maybe have them toss it and get them something NON candy as a treat instead. Maybe then they won't care either. I don't know. it's hard. This year, we aren't doing candy (she's 2 so she won't know better). And candy from family will be staying with family.
Anyhow... Personally I'm proud of you. Even if you've slipped.... you seem to be learning from those slips and that is a GREAT thing in itself.

Shelley said...

What the hell is up with your coworker? That person needs to respect your personal space and keep the damn candy to themselves!

I don't weigh myself very often and I am much happier for it. Our bodies DO fluctuate depending on TOM and other reasons and the last thing we need when we are trying to follow a healthy eating plan is to see a bad number on the scale and then get the "what's the use?" feelings going.

You are doing great, Hollie. Working at a school, where every holiday becomes a sugar-laden occasion, has got to be so hard! I don't envy you.

spunkysuzi said...

Congrats on trying to stay away from sugar!! Your doing great and the scale will show that eventually :)

loseweightnowegould said...

If you get ride of sugar it will definetely help. Of course all nature sugar from like apples is good in moderation.

2009 (The Year of Chris) said...

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Chris