Thursday, May 14, 2009

Day 32 - Back on Schedule

Today I am concentrating on getting back on schedule! I went through the day yesterday feeling like a zombie, but went to bed at 10:30 and got a solid 7.5 hours of sleep. I woke up this morning, and had oatmeal, and felt very good about getting back to my normal routine. My plan for today is to stay on my eating schedule (every 3 - 4 hours), and to make sure I focus on making the right food choices. Yes, avoiding sugar and caffeine is so much easier than I ever thought it would be. I don't have cravings for it (although I did think I needed a soda for pick-me-up yesterday, but didn't have one). But NEVER do I think I am "cured" or that I don't have a problem with sugar or caffeine anymore. I am an addict, and I will ALWAYS be an addict. So I have to FOCUS on everything I do that even remotely relates to food so that I will never be caught off guard and slip.

Yesterday was definitely one of those days that I felt like I had to pay attention. Numero uno... I was tired and sleepy. Research tells me that when your body is sleep-deprived, it produces chemicals that increase your appetite. The morning was the hardest, because I kept feeling hungry. I know it's because I only had a meal-replacement bar instead of my usual, filling breakfast. It would have been easy to pull over for fast-food, or hit the vending machine. But I just concentrated on making good choices, and that's how I got through yesterday without a breakdown. I want SO BAD to succeed right now. I am feeling so good about myself and my body and my weight loss. Summer is practically here, and I want to be a LOSER this summer. I want to wear sleeveless shirts and shorts and feel good about it, instead of worrying about how gross I look.

I went through my closet last night and started taking out the clothes that were WAY too big. Mostly the size 26's. I am going by that consignment shop today to see what the procedure is to consign. I also thought about eBay. I used to sell a lot of my clothes on eBay, but have noticed that over the past couple of years that not as many people are using it to buy/sell clothes. For the past few days I have been on there looking for deals, and I see that a lot of the good plus-sized clothes are still selling for a good price on there. I have really good stuff, so I might put a few things on there to see what happens. I know from past experience that consignment shops practically GIVE your clothes away. I would rather put in a little more work and get more money.

Clyde FINALLY came through with daycare money this week, so I think I might go and try to find a cheap pair of denim Bermuda shorts or capri's, since I can mix and match several different tops with those. Only 5 more days of school after today, woo hoo! I am SO ready for summer!

2 comments:

Jules said...

I'm glad to hear your getting rid of the bigger clothes. i've already decided as things get too big and not wearable... i'm getting rid of them (Except for my pregnancy clothes, which i hope I'll never fit again). I don't want anything to fall back on. as each piece is deemed too big, it goes into our donation box outside. i wish i had the patience to sell them... But I don't. I donate them to a charity that gives them away for free. no $$ involved for the person who gets them. so it's a win win.

Anyhow... as sick as this sounds... I'm glad to hear you do still struggle, and that you recognize that struggle for what it is. I don't mean that in a bad way. Even if that's how it came out. I'm just so proud of you!

Chubby Chick said...

Here's to being a "loser" this summer! I want to be a "loser," too! hehe

And... you might want to try selling your clothes with Craigslist. Lyn/Escape from Obesity mentioned in a post recently that she got rid of some of her "big" clothes that way.