Friday, August 21, 2009

Getting over it!

My day absolutely TANKED yesterday. The rain and gray skies brought in a bad mood, which only got worse until I went to bed. I woke up with the same sh*tty mood. Ugh! So, as I'm reading through the blogs on my blogroll, I came across this on Fat Daddy's blog:

"I like Hollie and her blog. I have had a link to her for a while now, and if you read her you will come to understand she is a warrior. She has been through a lot..."

Let me just say, this made my day. I don't feel like a warrior. Lately I've been feeling like a failure. It is so hard for me to see the light at the end of the tunnel right now. But you know what? I am a damned warrior! I am fighting right now - not just the Battle of the Bulge, but the Battle to Provide for my Children, and the "Battle to Make Ends Meet", and most importantly, the Battle to STAY SANE! I will not lay down, and I will keep fighting until I conquer all the evil forces that try to keep me down! I will WIN because I will NOT GIVE UP!

I started this blog nearly one year ago. Never in a million years did I ever dream I would have 122 followers a year later. I just wanted somewhere to put my thoughts about this journey, because at the time I had no one to lean on. I knew it was the time in my life where I NEEDED to make a change. I have received so much inspiration and encouragement from the blogs I read and from the comments that are left on this and other blogs. It really does keep me going, and it keeps me focused on the road ahead of me.

For the first time in a LONG time, I believe I CAN AND WILL DO THIS! I know I am not one of those people that can stick with a plan 100% all the time, but I can make positive changes that will add up over the long run and end up being a lifestyle for me. I am not the same person who used to binge on donuts in Walmart. I am not the same chick that used to hoard Cadburry eggs so I could eat 3 or 4 of them at night before I went to bed. I am not the same person who buys sugary snacks for my children to eat. I am changing, and my family will change, too. It might not happen this year, it might not happen next year, but I will reach my goal weight. I have already claimed it!

I got another good quote in my inbox this morning. It's my time to fly!

"When God leads you to the edge of the cliff, trust Him fully and let go. Only one of two things will happen. Either He'll catch you when you fall, or He'll teach you how to fly!"


13 comments:

F. McButter Pants said...

LOVE THIS POST! GO GET 'EM GIRL!!

Mommy2Joe said...

Love this post! Just found your blog and am already behind you 100%!

Fat Daddy said...

Go warrior girl!!!

Glad you are feeling better.

Jules said...

WHOHOO!! I knew you'd get back on the saddle. :) hehehehe!! After the summer of ups and downs, i knew I'd see the "warrior" in you come back. :) I adore you girl. you truly are amazing... and I admit... when i read your blog, you help remind ME that I can do this. :)

No matter the sky's mood today, have a great day! And remember the sky being a little gray is chance for a new day to dawn. So grab it by the horns and enjoy it!! :)

Shelley said...

You are such an inspiration, Hollie - I'm so glad to know you!

You go, warrior-woman!!!

HopeFool said...

Boy oh boy I needed to read something inspirational like this today. Thank you.

Gigi said...

Love this post and your closing quote. You're really doing it all and doing it with class and courage. Warrior, indeed!

Diane, Fit to the Finish said...

You just keep up that fabulous feeling! Keep going strong.

jeimayprovy said...

what a great quote at the end! i absolutely love it! you are a warrior keep on fighting!

Carlos said...

you ARE a warrior, not perfect but always wanting it more than the other guy! I pity your foes...

Lisa said...

GREAT post!

jo said...

What a powerful post! What a powerful person you are! Wow! =)

Erin said...

Very strong girl i love it! Life goes on and keep it up! Everything will be better.
Cheers,
Erin