Friday, December 11, 2009

Struggling!

This detox crap is HARD! SO much harder than it was the first time around. In a nutshell, I started, failed miserably the second day, re-started yesterday, and have did well today. Wednesday was hell... it seemed like I had donuts, cookies, and other assorted candy and cakes pushed in my face all day! I ended the night with a full-out binge (which I am not proud of at all). I felt like such a FAILURE. Why can't I "kick the habit"? Why does this have to SUCK?

It all goes back to the fact that I am ADDICTED to sugar and caffeine. They both do crazy things to my body, and I can't have either in my diet. I know detox sucks, but I have to do it. All I can do is one day at a time. I hope that this weekend is better. As you can see, it is a Friday night and I am home blogging instead of hanging out with friends at a bar. I decided that the temptation of alcohol and fried appetizers is NOT what I need right now. I need to stay focused, because honestly, my body feels like SHIT right now.

I am so bloated, and my clothes are starting to fit tight. TOM arrived today, so I am kinda glad that I can blame some of it on that. I am also hoping that by the time the week is over, I will be in SUCCESSFUL detox mode and will lose the TOM bloat and a little more weight at the same time. That will give me the boost I seriously need right now. I used to feel so confident when I looked at pictures, now I am feeling a little panicky because my face already looks fuller.... It's DO OR DIE TIME.

13 comments:

Hillary said...

Dieting sucks doesn't it? I am right there with you girl! I am ready to start losing weight & I am starting in the morning. I am also addicted to Caffeine and sugar. A few years back I lost almost 70 pounds on Atkins. Once I gave up the sugar, I started thinking more clearly and the weight just melted off of me. I am not going back on Atkins, but I am going to stop eating so much sugar, up my water intake and stop eating after 6:00 p.m.

You can do it!! Just remember that NOTHING tastes as good as skinny feels :o)

Lori said...

Hang in there! Day 3 is always the worst.

Jules said...

You can do it Hollie. 1 hour, 1 minute and 1 day at a time! It's a sucky time of the year to be trying (lets face it everyone brings the crap they don't want at home, to work for everyone to share), BUT when you finally get past the beginning hurdle! Holy cow girl!! You can say depsite the time of year, YOU DID IT!! It's a great challenge that should give you a boost... once you get over the hump! I'm proud of you! You should be too. You're trying and haven't given up!

TheLosingAmerican said...

Hey Hollie. I feel for you!! I had a rather 'off' weekend myself...wasn't very good with the sugar (infact, basically had a carb-fest weekend), didn't find the time to do my 'say no to sugar' hypnosis tapes. But am back on the health track tonight and tomorrow!!

Emmett said...

Hollie, I am not sure what kind of detox program you are on, but it shouldn't be soo complicated. We have a program where you take 2 tablets in the morning, 2 tablets at night for 21 days. I love it, I do it ever 4 months!
Hang in there Hollie, I know you can do it!
Emmett

CocoMozelle said...

I just stumbled across your blog and I have to say that I am totally in the same boat. I actually start my detoxification tomorrow and it's only for 2 days. Good luck with everything...weight loss isn't easy.

Angela and Jen said...

Why oh why did I break into that tin of holiday cookies my husband brought home last night? Should've re-gifted them! Together, Holliel, we will get through the end of the year! I'm currently on a high phytochemical smoothie program which will hopefully counteract some of the bad stuff. Great blog! Jen

John said...

I know its really hard to avoid sweets and caffeine specially this Christmas season but we should discipline ourselves if we really want to lose weight. You can replace it by eating fruits and don't forget to drink a lot of water.

Patrick Kallie said...

Any time that you are doing any type of detox it's very hard on the mind and the body. I myself have lost over 70 pounds and have kept it off for over 8 years.

coachwillb said...

You can do it Hollie!

I just lost 37 pounds doing P90X and i put on some muscle while i was at it!

One thing that i did that helped me, at least mentally, i did everything i could to cut out sugar. All sweets and things like that, but i dont like those sweeteners either, so i switched to raw cane sugar for my coffee. It tastes better, and i dont think it is nearly as bad as the bleached, white refined sugar. who knows though.

heres my blog. www.coachwillb.wordpress.com

Bobbi said...

I know just how you feel; you take 1 step forward and 2 steps back. It would be so nice if losing weight was as easy as gaining. Keep up the good work! You can do it!

299lbs said...

detox sucks.... but it'll get better soon :D

Annie http://299lbs.wordpress.com/

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