Monday, January 4, 2010

Are you kidding me????

I stepped on the scale this morning and the number was TRAGIC. I have gained 20 lbs, which really made me disappointed in myself. I HATE back-tracking! It’s gonna SUCK to have to lose 20 lbs just to get back to where I was a few months ago. I almost let it upset me, but then I tried to look at the bright side….It could have been so much worse! No, I am not making excuses… just being honest. I could have gained it ALL BACK before I got my butt back in gear. Or I could have crept back into the 300’s… a place I have vowed NEVER to go again! I am thankful that although they are tight and not-so-comfortable, I can still fit into my size 20 jeans. I am gonna dig out a pair of size 18’s from my “vault” and hang them in my close for my next goal. For people who know me, ya’ll know that size 18 is sort of a magic number for me…

Back from 2003 – 2005 I lost 100 lbs, and was feeling amazing in my size 18’s. I gave away most of my 18’s after I had my youngest and gained all the weight back, but I still have many of my favorite pieces. I can’t wait to wear them again!!! That will be a huge milestone for me. I actually have a picture of myself at around 240 lbs (size 18) hanging on my mirror for motivation.

On the subject of exercise – I watched Jillian Michaels’s 30-day Shred, No More Trouble Zones, and Banish Fat, Boost Metabolism. Honestly, I think Jillian may be on crack if she thinks the average fat chick (me) can do this stuff. I could TRY… but I could possibly buckle my hardwood floors after a session of those damned jumping jacks she loves so much… what’s up with that? I think I can do the “Trouble Zones” dvd because it’s mostly strength and toning stuff. I plan to dig out my Biggest Loser DVD’s and bond with Jillian that way. They are much more fat-person-trying-to-exercise-friendly. I also need to get my garage cleaned out ASAP so I can use that space as a workout area. I think a concrete floor would be much better for cardio than hardwood floors in my living room. Don’t wanna end up in my basement…

Found this article today…. 8 great reasons to work out!

1. To Battle Depression
2. To Feel Sexy
3. To Stay Healthy
4. For The Kids
5. To Achieve New Goals
6. To Feel Happier
7. To Build Stamina
8. To Have Your Cake (and Eat It Too!)

http://www.womenshealthmag.com/fitness/reasons-to-work-out

Also, Kimberly Linton (DC’s Toughest Trainer) gave me a shout-out on her blog yesterday – Thanks Kimberly!

One more thing... I heard a commercial for the 50 Million Pound Challenge this morning, so I signed into my account for the first time in about a year. I originally signed up in October 2007, and I was pleasantly surprised to see that since then, I am now 36 lbs lighter than I was when I first signed up! My weight then was 326, and sadly it climbed all the way to 333 before I started really taking the weight loss seriously. That made me feel better about my scale number this morning. I am NOT back to square-one!

12 comments:

Carissa said...

Congratulations on your weight loss so far.. that really is awesome!

I know what you're going through.. I've been there before (having gained ALL the weight back plus some) and I'm actually going through something like that right now.. I'm 8 lbs up from my lowest weight. Blah.

But lets get back on track & show this stubborn fat who's boss!!

Jack Sh*t, Gettin' Fit said...

It's a bitch to gain weight back, but at least you caught it in time to do something about it.

Get cracking and make 2010 a kick-ass year.

Keila said...

No, you are NOT back at square one! You are just proving that unlike celebrities whose job it is to look good, we live in the real world where junk happens.
Yes, you might have had a setback, but just look at all you've accomplished. And now, with everything you've learned since you started, you will be much better able to lose those 20lbs than before.
Good luck to you!

Jen, a priorfatgirl said...

come on lady, you can push through this - I know you can! Don't let the weight creep back on, fight for it.

I agree, some people at the beginning of their healthiness journey may not be able to do all of Jillian's video's - but the point is that you try. You try and try and try which will result in you getting a little better at it each time.

I belief in you! :)

Jen said...

I am right there with you. I lost over a hundred lbs and gained back 50. We can do it!

Rockin' Robin said...

Just get right back on track! You can do this...

purple_moonflower123 said...

Have your "dang it" moment, be pissed, and then just get back at it. It is upsetting and frustrating, but you just gotta dust yourself off and get back on track. You can do it!!

Fat Daddy said...

Of course it hurts to back track, but at least you have stopped the blleeding and are headed in the right direction. That is all you can do at this point.

I just kicked off the Shred yesterday, and it is kicking my butt pretty good! But I must say, if I can do that for 30 days...I know I will lose wiehgt and be in better shape.

That Jillian is tough!

Jules said...

The most important thing is you haven't given up. You've caught yourself and you're fighting to get where you know you can. You are right, you could have gained it all back instead of just some. AND hey! What you have lost is still an amazing feat. You can do this, you know you can. :)

I'm right here with ya. We all are!!

Carlos said...

new start hollie keep at it you sooo got this!

StarrStarr said...

I too have used the 50 million pound challenge pages and found that I looked forward to logging in my journal entries and exercise for the day. It definitel y kept me motivated. I have EXERCISE TV and I do all of the Jillian Michaels workouts you mentioned. When I started them I was 230 pounds and am down to 200. I have to say that with anything they were a challenge at first but with patience, repition, and maybe some cussing at the tv screen you can DEFINITELY get through them and see some major results!

charna said...

I have to agree with you on the Jillian Michaels Banish Fat Boost Metabolism DVD. I tried to do it the other day and thought I was going to DIE!!! It is not made for the overweight beginner like me.

I have the Biggest Loser Last Chance workout and tried that for the first time last night. It was tough but I was able to keep up. I like how this one shows you how to do some of the exercises at a lower level.

I just started reading through your blog today, keep up the good work. I too am on a re-discovered weight loss journey.