Monday, February 22, 2010

Struggling...still...

Just a quick post to let ya'll know I am still here... but I am struggling so bad. I have been binging again... even though I really hate to admit it on here. But you all keep me so accountable, so I had to say it. I hate to let anyone down, but I have let myself down and it sucks.

I wake up each day vowing to get back on track, but so far, I have not made it through a whole day. My life has got crazy again, and I just don't know how to handle it...yet. I am not giving up, and I will get my ass in gear. I just REALLY have to get my priorities in order, and trust GOD that everything will work out in the long run. I have to get my focus back on ME.

WHEW. Just getting this out in the open already makes me feel hopeful that I can turn it around tomorrow...

17 comments:

Greta from www.bigbottomblogger.blogspot.com said...

February sucks. I also had a BAD week last week but somehow have managed to pull myself back up into the wagon. You will, too! Focus on exercise. Sometimes...the food part can be so hard....and I sometimes think (for me, anyway) that when I am exercising the food part is easier to deal with.

Stay focused. You can and will do this! Hang in there...Spring is coming soon!

Crys said...

There's something to be said for striving! I'm with you Mama! :)

Onederland WannaBe said...

I'm sorry to hear that your struggling. For some people, weightloss comes easy, and for the rest of us, we have to keep working at it every single day.
there are many days I feel like I am taking one step forward and two steps backwards but the reality is...we ARE moving forward.

Perhaps lowering your goals a little may help. I usually find that starting of with "mini" goals, helps me to establish a good routine. If I am able to accomplish those goals, then I go ahead and slighty increase them the next week. Some days, my goals will simply be to get up out of bed, and walk around my livingroom for 5 minutes. Even though this seems an insignificant goal, when you are struggling, this can be a huge accomplishment.
I'm sure you will figure up what it is that will work the best for you....give it some time...and get some rest.
(HUGS)

Onederland Wannabe

M said...

I know it's hard, but take it one day at a time. If I had to think about how many times I have to do a stupid DVD workout to lose my big gut, I wouldn't want to do it at all. This journey is hard, but you can do it.

Phil said...

Tomorrow's another day to try. You can do it!

Michelle said...

I just started blogging on here too. I am in the same boat. But like I said yesterday, "He who started a good work in you, is faithful to complete it." Hang in there and take it one day at a time.

The Accidental Fat Chick said...

Its so hard to find balance with all of the commitments we have in life; but you will figure out what works for you. I was so far off track for awhile, like you I was waking up saying that was the day I'd get my act together, but something always came up that sounded better than getting it together. Finally, I dedicated the majority of one weekend day to planning meals, grocery shopping, food prep & figuring out a workout schedule for the upcoming week. It helps me tons to have it all on paper.

You can & will get back on track, I just know it! :-)

TheLosingAmerican said...

I had a similar situation over the weekend, where I felt like I was jsut eating and eating and eating and I had let everything go down the crapper. BUT! As always, read some blogs to help motivate me and put my game face back on for Monday!! :-D

You CAN do this because you WILL do this.

Weighting Around said...

We're counting on you to turn things around. Do it,girl!

Amberly said...

Hollie I've missed you! I know we all fall of the horse/wagon sometimes... but we gotta keep pushing on. Even today if you make 1 bad decision don't let it bring you down, and don't let it ruin the rest of your day. Get back on your plan and just focus at 1 pound at a time if that's what it takes. I'm here for you, and I'm sure many others are!

Lori Ann said...

From the queen of "just one little Fun Size Snickers won't hurt me", I know how it is. I also know that for me, I have to keep the Fun Size Snickers out of my house. Even if they are on half price after Valentines Day....

You can do it! You know what the issue is, so that is half of the battle! Pick up a weight loss book (I'm reading The Clean Eating Diet by Tosca Reno and have ordered her book on Clean Eating for kids and families) to inspire you! Hang out with the skinny chicks who like to exercise.

You got this! You didn't come this far to go back! Go girl!

Nathalie said...

Just remember that you have to come first. You have to take care of you first before you can take care of anyone else. And that doesn't just apply in general. :)

Lyn said...

You keep on trying! You will make it through one day, and then after that it will get easier. Hugs...

Jen, a priorfatgirl said...

You can do this lady. Pick yourself up and look in the mirror and smile at the only one who can do this. When you are in the moment, right before you binge, be honest with yourself - allow yourself to be vulnerable and deal with those binge feelings. YOU CAN FIGHT THIS. I know you can!

And, know that I'm right there with you fighting these binges. They've been frequent for me too but you and me, we can do this. When your about to binge, please think of me and what you would tell me. Then, do it yourself. I will do the same.

Corletta said...

You absolutely can do it! Remember what is true about yourself ans your situation. Also remember...big changes lead to small victories~

Juli's Journey said...

We all have those days. That is why we are all here, to help support each other. Chin up. Stay strong. You have helped me a lot. I hope I can return the favor.

Rob Dyess said...

Yeah... I have to agree, February BLOWS!!!

Hang in there. I agree with M- remember, it is just like anything else, One Day at a Time!!

Thanks for letting me know that there are others out there struggling... thanks for being honest. I know that that is not always easy.

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