Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Over food.

Since I have made up my mind to start Medifast, I have been binging. At first, I wasn’t really paying attention to it. But then yesterday, I realized what I was doing. I am trying to eat all of my favorite foods while I can. After I start Medifast, I am not going to be able to “treat” myself to the foods I love… not even once in a while. Those foods will be GONE until I reach goal… maybe beyond. Will I even WANT them anymore after I have reached goal? I really hope not…

One of the reasons I am going on Medifast is so that I can REALLY change my relationship with food. I want to enjoy food for what it is supposed to be – nourishment and energy for my body. Not what it has become… a crutch, a drug, and an addiction. Last night my oldest daughter and I were trying to decide what we wanted for dinner. Truthfully, I didn’t want ANYTHING. I am sick and tired of FOOD at this point. Nothing seems appealing to me. Lol… I’m sure I won’t feel like this after a week of Medifast food. But that’s how I feel right now.

I think this has really led me to the decision to start Medifast as soon as I get my package. I really don’t want to wait… I want to get started NOW. I am ready to stop feeling this way – fat, full, disgusted, bloated. My heartburn has even been coming back. UGH! Oh, and the binging is also over. I started my morning with a protein smoothie, and am drinking water as we speak. I will not binge until I get my food. If anything, I think that starting the process of getting my body off of the caffeine and sugar rush NOW will help once I start Medifast.

I am also going to get back in the gym this week. A few days of exercise will help me get focused. Medifast advises you to lay off the exercise for the first two weeks, since your body is going to be going through so many changes from the calorie restriction. I am going to play that by ear. If I feel great and can squeeze in a little time, I will. I just think I am going to shift from more cardio to more strength training. I want my new, transformed body to look as good as it possibly can!

So, over the next few days I am going to make a list. My list is going to consist of all my favorite foods that I am going to miss while I am on the next stage of my journey. Foods that I don’t need in the first place, but that I enjoy nevertheless. The day I start Medifast, I will burn that list. I will then be on my way to getting over food. At least, that is the plan.

10 comments:

M said...

I have the same problem. Food has been a great comforter to me in times of stress. It became an addiction. Good luck on your new journey!

Tim McGuiness said...

Good luck. I hear you. I've done Medifast since Jan 6th and I've lost 38 pounds so far (I have a LONG way to go).

Having everything packaged and planned for you does make it easier, I've several times on my own with little or no success, so i figured out I need help too.

I haven't been too hungry.

New Beginnings said...

Oh this could have been a post that I could have written! Although I am not starting Medifast, I knew we were starting Biggest loser at work. For the 2 weeks or so that I knew we were going to be starting it, I ate any and everything that I wanted "One last time." Even though I was already supposed to be eating healthy. I hate my relationship with food. I depend on it for so many different things, probably the least of which is nutrition. It's definitely something I'm trying to work on!

Rob Dyess said...

I think that it is great that you are trying something different. But what you are talking about today is EXACTLY why I didn't want to go on a restrictive diet. I mean.... I can not live without ice cream... I am going to be horrible to live with if I don't have it... my wife will tell you.

Go ahead on this... once again, I think it is fine, but for me, I always wanted to go back and have some of those foods.

Enjoy your blog!! Keep us updated on how it goes... oh, and tell us how the food tastes!!

Rob

www.weighdownsouth.com

michelle said...

I wish you the best of luck on this new program. I can tell you are becoming more and more frustrated by the minute. I am glad to see you will be going back to the gym. You are going through a rough patch right now but you will be okay.

Good luck!

medifastgirl said...

Good luck! I am in week two and look forward to following your journey!

Mary Jane said...

I am expecting my first Medifast order to be delivered tomorrow (March 4th). I like your idea of writing down all of your favorite foods then burning the list! I gave up alcohol and nicotine almost 18 years ago. If I can do that then I can do this, too!!!

Mary Jane said...

I will be starting Medifast this Friday. My food delivery is scheduled for tomorrow. I like your idea of writing a list of favorite foods and then burning that list!!!

Corletta said...

Wowzer...that is drastic...let me know how it goes! You can do it!

barry said...

Best of luck with the system. Great idea about making a list of comforting foods and burning them. I've heard of other people doing that with other problems they were having but never thought of using it for food.