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Thursday, November 18, 2010

No one likes chicken?

I posted a giveaway for Perdue chicken and hardly anyone has left a comment? SOMEONE has to like chicken and want to win, right?

Quick update...

I will have surgery on Tuesday on my abdomen. A CT scan on Monday found an abnormal mass in my lower abdominal region... right in the spot where the pain is. Hopefully removing the mass will solve my problem. The doc wasn't exactly sure what the mass is, but he thinks it could be endometrial cells that have implanted outside my uterus onto my ab muscles. Which would explain the extreme pain... especially with physical activity.

I am still loving my Isagenix products, but I have not been 100% this week. I feel like I am in stress/panic mode with everything going on surrounding the surgery and doctors visits. On top of everything, work has been extra stressful this week and my mother has been staying with me (and driving me insane). I am not overeating - just not drinking my shakes. But I am still drinking my Ionix Supreme every morning because I swear it is what is giving me the energy to keep going. I still FEEL so much better, so I know these products are working for me.

I have decided to do my family Thanksgiving dinner on Sunday since I am quite sure I won't feel up to cooking and having company two days after I have surgery. Sunday is also my baby's 5th birthday. My plan is to enjoy all of my favorite foods in moderation. One day off plan isn't going to kill me. I have been doing really well with portion control and stopping when I am full, so I am going to commit to NOT going overboard and stuffing myself. Monday is a new day, and since it is back to work, it will not be a "sitting around eating leftovers" kind of day.

If this surgery will take away my chronic pain, I will feel like a new person. This pain has got me down for SO LONG that I will not know how to act without it. I can exercise again! Without pain! I will have one less reason/excuse to not achieve my weight loss goals. And for that, I am truly thankful.

Thursday, November 11, 2010

A GIVEAWAY with a purpose!

Several weeks ago, I was sent a sample of Perdue's Short Cuts Roasted Garlic with White Wine for my review on this blog. I tried it, I loved it, and I agreed to do a giveaway. And then I forgot! Thankfully the nice people at Purdue reminded me about it the other day! They have a great incentive to go along with the giveaway.

You will receive a package of Perdue's Short Cuts Roasted Garlic with White Wine.

To enter:
1. Upload your favorite chicken recipe at HERE and dedicate it to anyone touched by breast cancer. For each chicken recipe uploaded from October 1, 2010 through November 30, 2010, Perdue Farms will donate $1.00 to Susan G. Komen for the Cure®, up to a maximum donation of $10,000.

2. Post the name of your recipe in the comments section of this blog post. You have until midnight November 21, 2010 to enter.

3. You can also get an extra entry if you "Like" my SkinnyHollie Facebook page. Just leave another comment on this blog post to let me know.

Winners will be randomly chosen.

Have fun, and good luck!

FCC Disclaimer: Purdue sent me free chicken for me to honestly review. I really liked it and wanted to give some away to my blogger friends.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Pain, pain go away...

Warning... this is gonna be long! I have been blogging in my head for DAYS now, but this is the first time I've got a chance to even open my laptop! Yes, life is that hectic.

I have been doing my Isagenix 30-day cleanse and I am loving it. I have to admit... I have not been 100% on plan, but I am sticking as close to the plan as possible most days. The great thing, is despite the other issues I have going on (explain later), I FEEL better. And guess what? I am losing weight. I am going to wait until the 30 days are officially up to post a number, but the scale is being nice. I actually had someone tell me today that I looked like I'd lost weight. That ALWAYS feels good.

The biggest difference that I can tell with this plan is that my cravings for sugar are under control. I am also very rarely hungry, and I constantly crave water. Today is my first total cleanse day. You are supposed to do them weekly, but I have chickened out before today because I just didn't know if I was ready for a full-out day with no real food. But it has been fine! No hunger pains, no fatigue. I feel "normal". Every day that goes by I feel more confident about the decision to try this product. I don't feel like I'm on a "diet" either, which is also great.

So many issues have been cropping up with me that just seem to keep wanting to get in the way of my progress. But the number one thing right now is PAIN. I am in pain. Real pain... sharp, stabbing pain... all the time. At first it was sporadic - maybe a few days out of the month. My doctors originally thought it had to do with ovarian cysts or endometriosis. Test a couple of weeks ago confirmed that my problem was not a gynecological issue... so my ob/gyn sent me to a gastro doctor. The gastro doctor said it feels like I have a hernia, so he sent me to a surgeon. Yesterday, the surgeon couldn't pinpoint the problem, so Monday I am going for a CT scan. I am praying to get to the bottom of this, because the pain is terrible. It never stops, and it is beginning to really wear me down.

I feel like the pain has been my little secret for a long time. I just dealt with it because as soon as my ob/gyn told me back in 2006 that it was an ovarian cyst, and that it was not cancer, I decided that it just wasn't worth surgery. And when the pain only lasted a few days out of the month, it was bearable. But over the past six months or so, it has just became increasingly worse. A few days turned into two weeks out of the month. And for the last two months it just hasn't stopped.

So many people have asked me why I let it go this far? Well, I think it goes back to me not making myself a priority. I don't want to stop what I am doing to take time for myself. I make my job, my kids, my mom... EVERYONE... a priority. But I didn't take the time out to make a doctor's appointment for myself. Just like I don't make time to go to the gym... or plan my meals... You get the picture, right?

I think that is one of the reasons I am feeling good with the Isagenix. Every day that I stay on plan, every day that I turn down fast food and make a better meal choice, I feel like I am in control. So much is out of my hands right now, but I am slowly seeing that the food that I put in my mouth is something I CAN control. I MUST start treating myself with the care and respect that I use for other people in my life. It is hard - so much easier said than done. But I am trying. One good decision at a time.

It's not so much about weight loss anymore. There have been several days that I am still frustrated because the scale isn't moving as fast as I think it should. But I know that good health will take time for me. We all know that stress isn't good for weight loss - and I am STRESSED TO THE MAX. Not just about my health, but about EVERYTHING. Work, school, kids, my mom, my messy house, my relationships, money... EVERYTHING. And have you ever tried to exercise - or be motivated to exercise - when you are in excruciating pain? But one good choice at a time, I am know that I can be good to my body and make my health better. I am cleansing and hopefully re-setting my body from the inside, and I am trying to fix whatever it is that is causing my body this pain.

And in the mean time, I am moving forward. I won't quit... I never will. I know that one day I will get "there". I will lose this weight, I will finish school, my first year of teaching will be behind me, my mother will be taken care of, my kids will continue to be healthy and cared for, and I will be financially stable. I might even settle down and marry the love of my life one day. All will be good - I know it will - because I won't quit.