Thursday, December 1, 2011

I am tired...

But my blogger/facebook friend (TOPS Lady) called me out, so I have to report. No gym yesterday or today. But I have a reason, not an excuse.

I am allowed to leave school at 3:15.

Yesterday, I had a meeting after school (at 3:15). I rushed from that meeting to a doctor's appointment at 4 p.m. Wednesday is Church night, so I barely had enough time after that appointment to go grab my kids from the house and go get my nephew from wrestling practice by 5:30. We went straight from the high school to church and had dinner. Church starts at 6:30, and we got home at around 7:50. By the time I got my kids settled and bathed (all four of them need lots of prompting to hurry in the shower when we get home late), it was almost 9 p.m. My gym closes at 9 p.m.

Today, I left school right at 3:15 so I could hurry and get my eyebrows waxed, run to the gym, then go to my nephews wrestling match by 5:30. After I left the waxing salon, I was driving toward the gym when I got the call that my sister was at my house. This is my nephew's mom, and she had come to town to surprise her son at his match. She also had a sugar-daddy with her that offered to take me to get some groceries first. Since I am poor and need all the help I can get, I met them at Kroger! Good thing I had my coupons ready to go, so I actually made out pretty well.

We ended up getting to the match LATE. But they were going up against 3 different schools so I still got to see him wrestle 2 times (missed the 1st one). Even though the match wasn't over, I left the school at 8:15 because I knew I had to get my 2 youngest kids in bed ASAP. While they were getting baths, I ran to Publix and scored some more deals on groceries, with my coupons. I came back just in time for my nephew's call that he was ready for me to come get him.

It's now almost 11 p.m., and I am still not CLOSE to crawling in my so-desperately-wanted bed. I am tired. My feet and back are killing me.

But at least I know that the reason I've missed the gym for two days is not because I was lazy or because I didn't squeeze in time where I could. There just wasn't time. But hey, I'm a single mom of four kiddos. Sometimes, I just have to roll with what I've got, and hope for the best tomorrow.

I have a 6 p.m. church meeting in Nashville about an important ministry I want to be a part of. So my plan is to do a right-after-school workout tomorrow. I also plan on hitting the gym this weekend, too. We are having family portraits done on Saturday at noon, so I can go before or after that. And Sunday I can go anytime after church.

I really think I can make that happen!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

My battle...

And my laziness, I guess, lol! Saw this on Pinterest and had to share.

I went to the gym again today... 40 minutes. YAY ME!

Wow... 2 days in a row of blogging AND going to the gym. Anyone see a connection?

Blogging = accountability. Period.

Today is just as busy and hectic as most of my other days, but the difference is that I made it my business to get to that gym. I am proving to myself that it can be done, it's just up to me to make up my mind to do so.

*****

Sidenote: Anyone coupon? I'm going to give it a shot. I struggle with feeding 4 kids on a limited income, so I am going to try this couponing thing. Any suggestion are welcome!



Monday, November 28, 2011

You might be (P)interest'd to know...

Guess who went to the gym today?

Me. 31 minutes on the elliptical.

At some point over my 5-day break I decided that my butt is back in the gym. No excuses. If I do not go to the gym for at LEAST 20 days from now until the end of the year, I am cancelling my gym membership. That's 40 dollars per month that I don't need to waste. But it's also 40 bucks well spent if it's spent on my health.

My workout wasn't as hard as I though it would be. But here I am 3 hours later and I feel like my legs are made of lead. I am committing to at least 30 minutes per day. I will make it happen, because I HAVE to.



Ok, so why in the hell am I just now getting on Pinterest??? OMG! I signed up on Saturday and I am now addicted. As a teacher, I am so excited about the teaching ideas they have on there. But I am also loving the inspirational quotes and recipes, too.

Ok, off to bed for me. We are supposed to get SNOW tonight, so I am gonna say a special snow prayer before I go to bed. Teachers and students alike LOVE snow days!

Friday, November 25, 2011

Happy Thanksgiving!

Well, it's that time of year again... when we stuff ourselves to the point of nausea on Thanksgiving. Oh, is that just me?

This Thanksgiving I decided that as a family, it was time to start some new traditions for Thanksgiving. On Wednesday, we spent all day preparing food boxes and delivering then to people in need with country music singer, Tracy Lawrence. Apparently, I've went to Sunday school with his wife for a while and didn't know it. But hey, I don't listen to country music. But I've been told this is the 6th year that he has fried turkeys for homeless in our area, and I am glad I got to help this year. He seemed like a cool guy. Here he is with my son, AJ...

Doing this volunteer work with my children really blessed our hearts. We don't have a lot, and barely make ends meet. But we are SO MUCH better off than some people around us. I think it was a life-changing experience for all of us.

Yesterday for Thanksgiving, we also spent a couple of hours doing volunteer work at our new church, who was actually giving dinner to people in the Nashville community. That was great, too. It was also great to stop by and see some of my family while I was in Nashville.


That's me, my daughters, two of my sisters, and my brother. I rarely get to see my brother, so yesterday was nice.

We had dinner at Jessica's house yesterday, and let's just say that I was GREEDY. OMG. From the fruit tea to the twice-baked sweet potatoes, the food was just awesome. And the desserts were even better. I only had one plate of food, and didn't even finish it, but I was so STUFFED that I had a hard time sleeping last night from the heartburn and indigestion.

Ugh.

So guess what I did today? I hate a plate of leftovers, and immediately fell into a coma.

Will I ever learn?

Yes. Thing is, I have learned. Several years ago, I would have found absolutely nothing wrong with eating this way.

Good thing? I am going to really start making an effort to do better again. I've been "stuck" for over a month now, and I am ready to get "unstuck" again. Now. I am not waiting for New Years.

One thing that I know is that I NEED to get back in the gym. I am paying $45 per month for a gym membership that I don't even use. That is about to change, though.  I have to get moving again. My body is just tired all the time, and I have no energy. I KNOW that cardio makes me feel great once I get started again, I just need to get off my lazy butt and do it. I have to stop making excuses and MAKE the time to go. My life is not going to slow down anytime soon, so I have to start making ME a priority. I say this all the time, but I never do.... but I at least have to say I am trying. Right now... I am not trying, and it sucks to know that I have come this far and am not even trying to make a change for the better. I at least have to try.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Another WINNER :)

Sorry... I know I should have posted this on the 12th, but life is unusually busy this month.

The winner of the Weight Watcher's scale is.....

S

That's all that was listed on the comment, and there is no email address attached. So if you are "S" please email me at skinnyhollie at gmail dot come so I can get your scale shipped to you!

Hopefully I will be back tomorrow or Friday to update you on my #failing diet... smh

Update...

Umm... I TOTALLY didn't notice that there were TWO people who posted under the name of "S"... so THIS is the comment that won the scale...

"My worst: I joined in at my job for a coporate YMCA challenge to see which group as a whole would lose the most weight over 8 weeks. I was training for my second marathon and on the final weigh in day I had run 48 miles during the week. I wore light clothing, I didn't eat or drink that morning, I was running like a maniac...and in front of all of my collegues, I was read my weight and informed that I hadn't lost a SINGLE pound- OR gained any muscle... or lost any inches. How could that be? I don't have a scale at home and would love one."

Sorry for any confusion!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Review and Giveaway... Weight Watcher's Scales

Back in August, I was given the opportunity to review a set of scales. I am a scale junkie, so I was too excited about it! I already had two set of scales that were okay... But these scales looked really nice so I was eager to see the difference. I am too cheap to pay more than $20 for a set of good scales, so free = great!


These are the scales I received...


Weight Watchers® by Conair™ Glass Body Analysis Scale Model WW52
The scale has a sleek, streamlined design along with a blue backlight on the 1.9” LCD screen with 2 lines. It features impact-resistant tempered safety glass platform with stainless steel and includes bone mass analysis. The 12.2” x 12.8” scale has a 400 lb. capacity and includes long-life batteries. It retails for about $49.99.


My opinion... I really like it. I really only used it for checking my weight, but it also does a bone mass analysis. It was definitely my favorite out of the collection of scales I own. The numbers are easy to ready, and it gave me an accurate reading that didn't change each time I stepped on the scale (I hate that!).


Notice I said "was" my favorite... 


Craziest thing happened just this morning... I nudged the scale with my foot to position it before I stepped on it, and the scale SHATTERED all over my bedroom floor! What a blog to the ego it would have been if it had shattered when I stepped on it! Scared the crap out of me and my daughter who was standing close by.


I guess it was a fluke... I don't know. Crazier things have happened to me. But the company rep has offered to send me another one, which I think is very nice. Hopefully it will last longer than 2 months next time!


The scale that I'm giving away tonight is a different model, so hopefully everything will be okay with this one, lol.


Check it out:


Weight Watchers® by Conair™ Digital Painted Glass Scale Model WW24
If you just want a good old simple weight measurement, but with extraordinary style, this best-selling Weight Watchers scale is a great choice! The smooth scale has an easy-to-read 1.3” digital display with a “tap-on” scale activator.  There is a high-strength tempered safety glass with decorative silk screen available in white, red, or blue. The scale is 11.8” X 12.6” and has a 400 lb. capacity. The scale runs on long-life AAA lithium batteries that are included and has a 10-year warranty.


TO ENTER THIS GIVEAWAY, please leave a comment telling me about your WORST experience on a scale! Ever had one shatter when you stepped on it, lol? Winners must live in the U.S., and you have until November 12! Good luck!

Sephora Gift Card Winners!

Sorry I'm a couple of days late... but here are the THREE winners of the $25 Sephora gift cards:

Cicely C., The Single Momtrepeneur

Leigh, You Betcha I'm a Proud Army Mom!

Christie, Changing From Fast to Fit!

Please email me at skinnyhollie at gmail dot com with your mailing address asap so I can get these cards out for your holiday shopping pleasure!

Check out my facebook page (facebook.com/skinnyhollie) to see who won the other two cards!

**Winners were chosen using random.org**

Monday, October 24, 2011

Sephora gift cards up for grabs!

In my previous post, I mentioned that I was offered FREE samples of Slim-Fast in exchange for my review on the blog. I was happy to agree, because I have used Slim-Fast a lot in my weight loss journey... I have always liked the taste (even when it was a powder that you mixed with milk.. remember that?).

This is what a representative from Slim-Fast sent me about the NEW and IMPROVED Slim-Fast...


Did you know one in four people considering a diet are focused on looking at a specific event or occasion?

With the Holidays right around the corner and juggling family life, thinking about losing those last 5-15 pounds for any special occasion, such as a high school reunion or wedding, can seem difficult. But with Slim·Fast’s new on-the-go shakes you can throw the re-closeable bottle in your purse or gym bag.

Slim·Fast is shedding the can to introduce its new, best-tasting shake ever – all inside a convenient, on-the-go bottle. The new shakes are creamy, rich and feature 10 grams of protein, 5 grams of fiber and 24 essential vitamins and minerals, making it easier – and tastier – than ever to go from now to “wow”. 

Slim-Fast is an equally convenient, great-tasting way to stay fit and filled for those looking to lose weight or just looking to maintain. Flavors include Creamy Milk Chocolate, French Vanilla, Rich Chocolate Royale, Cappuccino Delight and Strawberries N’ Cream.

This person was also nice enough to send me FIVE gift cards for Sephora that are worth $25 each. Honestly, I didn't know about Sephora until now, but I am VERY excited to try some of their products!

I am giving away THREE of these gift cards on the blog, and the other two on my Facebook page. All you have to do to get your name thrown in the hat is leave a comment on this blog post about how much you love (or don't love) Slim Fast, and you can also go to my Facebook page and leave a comment on the post that is there about the give-a-way. It's that easy! I will choose a winner randomly on November 1.


FTC Disclaimer: I was offered free Slim-Fast for my honest review, which I provided. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah...

Backslider...

Yes... I am a backslider. But not for long.


Fall Break, which was the first two weeks of October for me, really threw me off track. I had minor surgery on 10/4 - which went well for the most part. I DID come down with a case of MRSA, which doesn't surprise me because whenever I'm in the hospital, no matter how hard I try to prevent it, I get some sort of staph. Ugh. And I am still "healing" from my surgery site... which is driving me insane. 


**ok... this is the part where it may be TMI**


I had some abnormal tissue removed from my cervix, and also had an endometrial ablasion at the same time. Although my doc says it's normal, I am still spotting. Not a lot, but enough that I have to wear a pad. And it's DRIVING ME CRAZY. I feel like I've been on my period for over three weeks. I know someone in blogland understands what I'm going through...


**end of TMI**


Ok... so with being sick, and not feeling like my "normal" self, my eating has been off track. I can't blame it all on surgery, though. A lot of it has to do with being "happy". I have a new special someone in my life, and that person was around a lot during Fall break. My in-laws also came to visit for almost a week. This means that I cooked a lot more than I normally do. And because I am a good cook, I usually eat my food and enjoy it.


See where I'm going?


Well, almost like a sign from GOD, I got a nice little package from Slim Fast in the mail on Saturday. They have new and improved shakes that I was happy to agree to try... everyone knows I love a good shake!


"Slim·Fast is shedding the can to introduce its new, best-tasting shake ever – all inside a convenient, on-the-go bottle. The new shakes are creamy, rich and feature 10 grams of protein, 5 grams of fiber and 24 essential vitamins and minerals."




I had a shake for breakfast this morning, and they really are good! But I thought the old Slim-Fast in a can was good, too. I am definitely going to be using these to get back on track. Today was a crazy day both at work and at home, so I do admit to doing some stress eating. But I have already planned my meals for the next three days, so I am ready to keep going back in the right direction. I haven't weighed, but I know I have gained. 'Tis life, and just part of my journey. I will get back on track... NOW.


Who's with me?


Stay tuned for my next post... I've got some Sephora gift cards that are burning a hole in my pocket!


FTC Disclaimer: I was offered free Slim-Fast for my honest review, which I provided. Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah...

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Almost like normal...

I always hate it when I get so busy that I forget to update my blog. As much as I am on the computer for work, I seem to have ditched my home computer lately. I haven't checked Blogger or Facebook in almost a week, and last night was the first time I'd checked my personal email address in over a week. I have been busy, but things have been good!

First things first... I am still under 300! Yay for me. I am not as far down as I would like to be because I had a weekend of bad eating about 3 weeks ago. Then 2 weeks ago I went out of town with a friend for a funeral for the weekend. Both of those weekends combined had me up about 5 lbs, but I didn't freak out. I just went back to my "normal" eating, and as of this morning I am 296.

Funny how I say "normal". These days, "normal" eating for me is lower carb, higher protein. I don't eat after 6pm. I drink more water. I only eat when I am hungry. I don't eat candy and limit my intake of sweets and soda. I basically eat what I want, but my "wants" have changed. I still feel like I am in control.

The weekend 3 weeks ago when I ate out on both Friday and Saturday night, I still watched what I ate and still stuck to my plan for the rest of the weekend. I didn't throw in the towel and say, "Hey, I ate Prince's Hot Chicken last night, so I am going to start over Monday." I started over on the very next meal. No more "Monday" thinking for me right now. I am in this for the long haul.

I am finally comfortable with the fact that small changes is what is going to get me where I need to be. As long as I make an effort to do my best each day, I will reach my weight loss goals. It may take longer than restricting whole food groups, or drinking shakes for months at a time (which I have been more than willing to do in the past). I am changing, slowly but surely.

My big goal for this week is to exercise at least 4 times for 30 minutes each time. I have a friend that is also trying to meet this goal with me, so I am going to try my best. My oldest daughter got braces yesterday afternoon, and I had a baby shower to go to this afternoon. Tomorrow I have Spanish class after school, then church. So I guess I will have to really push for the rest of the week to make that goal. It's so hard to exercise when you've got a million things going on. But I have to try.

My personal life is less stressful, so that is good. I have had to eliminate some people from my life, but it's for the best. I have also formed new friendships and relationships that seem promising. I guess that changes in the people who surround you each day is just part of life. Some people are around for a season or a reason, some people will last for way longer than that. I am blessed to have people who genuinely care for me and my kiddos, and who can hold my hand through the tough times. I am also thankful for the people who have caused me pain and made my life hell, because those are the people who have made me the strongest.

Saturday, September 3, 2011

Goals, and focusing on what is important.

I finally made my first goal... I am under 300 lbs! I have been hovering at around 298 for a few days. I drank some on Thursday night, so I stayed off the scale yest and today so I wouldn't be discouraged by any fluctuation that the alcohol caused. But I am still in control. Even with the stress (which is still here), and even with the holiday weekend.

Yes, I have been a little tempted. I had some cravings yesterday that I had to fight. And today I was "thinking" about a fast-food lunch (which I haven't had in months). But I have been able to overcome. I am very focused on my next goal of 289 lbs.

I realized today that although I am eating less, I have slacked on making good choices. I am not drinking all the water I should be. And I am also not eating enough fruit or veggies. SO that is my goal for the upcoming week.

With all the madness taking place in my personal life, I have to make myself focus on what is important. My children are my first priority, so I am trying to pour myself into them. They deserve my time, effort, and energy. I am also re-focusing a lot on my classroom and making this a successful school year.

Sometimes I wish I could just get control of my mind. My mind is my worst enemy. I think way too much, and I allow my thoughts to defeat me even before I have a chance to succeed. Medication helps, but I am still struggling. I am praying for guidance and peace in my life. I want to be healthy in mind, body and spirit.

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Time to write...

My personal life is imploding.

I am a pretty private person. Most people don't know my business unless they are in my "circle". And my circle is small.

Today I am *stressed about a personal situation that I am going through with someone. Well, it's really more than one person involved. But one person that is important to me. And I just felt the need to write. I know that some will ask what does this have to do with my weight loss. But this is the kind of stuff that can throw me off the wagon faster than a Krispy Kreme doughnut.

But today, I am not eating my way through the stress. I actually went on a walk. I loaded up my ipod with some new songs I've purchase, and I walked for 45 minutes. And although I feel somewhat better, I am still a little down. But I won't eat.

I am *SO* CLOSE to getting back under the 300 lb mark. I have hovered around 301 and 302 for a week. My eating has been really good except for margaritas and queso chips on Friday night. I did 40 minutes of cardio at the gym yesterday and along with my walk today I vow to start moving again. Hopefully that will get me off this plateau.

As far as my body goes, I feel great. My clothes are looser, and I still "feel" better. For the first time (probably ever) I feel like I am eating intuitively. I've heard other bloggers talk about it, but never felt like I could do it. I eat when I am hungry, and when I do eat I try to choose good food. And by good, I mean whole, clean, organic food. I try to keep my carbs and sugar to a minimum. But I don't follow a "plan". And for now, it's working. I've often been tempted to count my calories to just see about how many I am eating per day, but right now I am afraid to rock the boat.

With everything else going on, I am just glad that food is at the bottom of my list of things to worry about right now. I am conscious about what I eat and am making an effort to pay attention to everything. I have only had school lunch twice, and today I had a school salad. All three times it was because I chose to eat that day, not because I was unprepared. I actually keep some of my leftover Medifast shakes at school now with my mini blender. This way I am guaranteed SOMETHING good to eat even if I forget to pack my lunch. I always did like those Medifast shakes, and they do fill me up...

Well, thanks for letting me vent. I just felt like writing to get some of this anxiety off me. I am really praying a lot these days for clarity and direction. I know that God has plans for me, and that I am close to a big breakthrough in my life. But truth is, I am lonely. I don't want to be alone anymore. But I also don't want to settle for just anyone in my life. I did that with my ex-husband for 10 years. So I am going to have to be patient. And in the meantime, I will continue to work on me.

Monday, August 15, 2011

You'll never guess...

Yep. I've been doing well! Really well.

Last time I weighed, I was down over 10 lbs. I am getting close to getting out of the 300's again, and I am almost confident I will be there sooner than later.

I haven't blogged in a while because I have been so busy with back-to-school. I went back to work on 7/18 and students came back on 8/1. It's the 3rd week of school and I can feel a good routine settling in finally. My baby girl started Kindergarten today, so now all of my kids are back to school, too.

I am still eating as organic as possible for my budget. I have not had McDonald's in about a month. The only fast food I have indulged in is pizza and Subway. And both of those have been limited.

I think the biggest change is that I am eating much less. I haven't binged in quite a while either (since before my last blog post on 7/20). I am feeling very in control of my eating. I eat when I am hungry, and try to choose protein instead of bad carbs. I have not eat school lunch at all since school started, and I pack my lunch every day. I can tell a huge difference in how I feel. My heartburn has disappeared again (shocker). I just feel better. I know it has a lot to do with the better food, but I MENTALLY feel better because I know I am in control.

I just recently got on the scale because I was curious, but I vow not to let those numbers mess with me anymore. I am focused on good habits and good food right now. Not numbers. As I am slowly proving, if I keep taking these baby steps to being healthy, the weight loss will follow. I am not running a race. I am on a journey.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

baby steps and organic eating

The kids are out bowling with a friend of mine, so I figured it was a perfect time for a blog post!

So much has been going on... I am officially back to work. The first day with students isn't until August 1, but we have so much professional development that I am already back in the swing of things. I am excited about the upcoming school year and blessed to still have a teaching job.

A lot of thinking and emotions have been playing out in my head about my eating and weight loss journey. I am still praying through a lot of things, and asking God for guidance. And it feels good to have "help" from that area.

After my last blog post, a few people made comments referring to my "all or nothing" attitude when it comes to dieting. One person implied that I set myself up for failure by putting so many restrictions on my eating, and suggested small changes. Exactly when I was reading that comment, I was pretty much beating myself up for having a bad day eating, and for not being able to "get it right". So I prayed. And then I thought to myself...

What if instead of making restrictions that I don't seem to be able to stay with long-term, I just made small changes every day. Small steps in the right directions. And at the same time celebrated those small victories instead of being so disappointed in myself for continuously failing at weight loss?

What if?

Over the past couple of weeks, my stomach has been uncomfortably bloated. My raging heartburn has returned to the point where I am about to start taking medication again. On Monday morning when I was getting dressed for a teacher-inservice, my capris were TIGHT. Since summer school ended I've been wearing sundresses or elastic-waist bottoms, so I just wasn't expecting that they would be TIGHT. So what did I do? I ate like crazy all day. And then at the end of the day, I had that hopeless, disappointed feeling that I hate.

Tuesday morning, I prayed for a better day. And as if God Himself were talking to me, the thought popped in my head to eat a good breakfast. So I got up and made an egg sandwich on whole wheat bread. And guess what? I was totally satisfied until lunch. For lunch, I had Subway. And guess what? I was totally satisfied until dinner. I had three solid meals, and not once was I hungry in-between. I felt like I was in control, finally.

And so I got up this morning and did the same. I have made good choices, and I feel good.

At the same time all this is going on, my entire family is going on a new path of eating. Last week, my family and I watched Food, Inc. For those of you that have watched that movie, you know EXACTLY what I mean when I say that movie is mind-changing. My kids even turned down their favorite McDonald's when someone offered to take them.

I have started buying organic milk and eggs as a start. I have not been able to buy any meat, because I keep seeing mad cows and exploding chickens. The cage-free chicken and grass-fed beef that I've priced is RIDICULOUS, so I haven't  bought any. When I empty my pantry and deep-freezer, I am going to replace it with good food. My kids are now begging for healthier food at home, so I am a fool if I don't give it to them. It benefits all of us.

With that being said, if anyone can refer me to any sites with tips or recipes for clean and organic food please let me know. I HAVE to start cooking. And with school starting, I have to start figuring out options for lunch and breakfast since my kids will NOT be eating school lunch this year. Good food is more expensive, but I am convinced that the benefits are worth it. But I have to find a way to try.

I think this all ties in. Me making good choices. My kids making good choices. One step at a time.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

All you care to eat...

Thought for the Day...Day 3: We were made for more! More than this failure . . . more than this cycle . . . more than being ruled by our taste buds, body image, rationalizations, and guilt. We were made for victory. Sometimes we just have to find our way to that truth.


Wow... I needed to hear that today. 


My bff and I took a short trip out of town on Monday and just got back yesterday. It was a girlfriends trip... just me and her. It was so nice to get away for just a few days... no kids, no responsibility. For that I am thankful.




But during that trip I ate so much that most nights I had to pop antacids just to sleep. We stayed at a casino that had a Paula Deen Buffet. Since it only $30 for 24 hours of eating, that's the only place we ate while we were there. #enoughsaid


Today I was back at work for an inservice, and opted for Subway instead of eating out at a restaurant. But I still have this full, bloated feeling that is so uncomfortable. Honestly, I am miserable.


I've literally had enough. 


So tomorrow, it's back on the wagon. No more excuses. No more vacations. No more binges. No more laziness.


I go back to work Monday for two weeks of inservice before school starts on August 1. I am definitely going to take advantage of the routine.


I might even go back to the gym...


I had to whisper that statement because I know I need to but the thought is just scary right now. I know it's gonna be brutal. But the gym is across the street from my school. It's almost too convenient to pass up.


Sooo... it's back on WW. I am cutting out sodas, since my body rejects them now and they are almost painful to drink. I am also cutting out all sugar except for fruit and oatmeal. Yes... that is also necessary. I may as well detox now before school starts.


I have also made up my mind that I will not be eating school lunch at all next year. I can't won't go into it on here, but there is not way that school lunches are going to be a problem next year, lol.


**sigh**... here I go again...

Friday, July 8, 2011

Day 2... again

Thought for the Day: God made us capable of craving so we’d have an unquenchable desire for more of Him, and Him alone. Nothing changes until we make the choice to redirect our misguided cravings to the only One capable of satisfying them.


I stayed focused and on plan yesterday. I journaled and counted points for everything I ate. That was my goal, and it was accomplished. For that, I am happy.


I still had a few cravings, but I didn't leave the house all day so I was ok. Today will be a challenge. So far, I've been lazy all morning but me and the kids are about to hit the road. I desperately need my eyebrows done. Then I am driving into town to visit a teacher store I've heard good things about. While I'm there, I am going to take my kiddos to play at Monkey Joe's, one of those inflatable play places. I might meet up with one of my friends while I'm there, and will probably eat out. Tonight, I want to paint my girls' room before my oldest daughter gets back from camp tomorrow (surprise).


I also have an old friend from high school that is going to let me have her points calculator, since she has a high-tech phone with a WW app. Having a points calculator should help me a lot since I can take it with me wherever I go. Hopefully, I can meet up with her today, too.


So... the rest of the day will be hectic, but I plan to stay focused. My plan... stick to my points and journal everything like yesterday. I also need to make good choices and eat more fruit and veggies. When I go to Walmart for paint, I am gonna also stock up on produce.


I have prayed and read my devotional. When I start to crave food today, I will remember that I must crave God instead of food.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Peace all around me...

Thought for the Day: Eating in its proper context is not the problem. God gave us food for nourishment, strength, and even celebration. But when pleasure becomes unrestrained, there’s a problem.


Today is day one of the 21-day devotional series that goes along with the book I'm reading (Made to Crave). I woke up this morning, and I prayed for God to help me. My goal for the day is tracking and staying within my Weight Watcher points. Baby steps, yes, I know. But it is the step in the right direction. I need to be in control. I have to admit that I feel a sense of peace about my eating today. I'm not craving, or just wanting to eat because I've told myself I can't. I'm gonna make it.


Yesterday was so busy. It was my first in-service of the summer, which basically means that I will be back to work in no time at all. The floors have been waxed in my classroom, and everything is out of place. I worked on organizing some shelves yesterday, and I may go and work on my room a little today, too. I would like to get organized so I can start planning soon. I have the opportunity to really get a head-start on things so that the first few weeks of school will not be so stressful.


My teenagers went to camp on Tuesday, so I only have my two younger kids (ages 10 and 5). It is so quiet around the house... so peaceful! I have been trying to get off my butt and clean today. I also have to mow the lawn later... something that I haven't done at all this year. Hey... I have two teens that can do it for me! I was griping about it on Facebook, but someone reminded me that both cleaning and mowing are good exercise, so I'll take it!


I would love to go swimming, but I've temporarily lost my swim teacher. We are not exactly seeing eye-to-eye right now. That sucks.


Which also reminds me of something that I was thinking about while cleaning the toilet this morning... In the grand scheme of my life, my weight loss and health journey are just two of the MANY things that I have on my plate. My thoughts and emotions and priorities are all over the place. If I could just focus on what I eat every day, I would be able to go so far! But when I am constantly drowning in money issues, bills, car repairs, love life (or lack of), being a mom, worrying about MY mom, being a teacher, grocery shopping, etc, it's hard to make weight loss or even ME a main priority.


So maybe this route will work, since I am making GOD my main priority, and using my weight-loss journey as the way that I am showing my devotion to Him. I am finally seeing (again) that if I put God first in my life, everything else falls in place.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Changing the plan...

I have been avoiding my blog like the plague. My blog is where my weight-loss honesty hits me in the face. When FatHollie is hiding from SkinnyHollie, she avoids the blog. Blog = Truth.

Over the past week, I have been blogging in my head. Just now, tonight, have I decided to finally put it on the line. I am ready to change my plan... again. But this is a new plan... one I've never tried before.

A few months ago, I was given a book by a dear friend. I read the first few chapters, agreed with pretty much everything it said. Then I put it down, got busy, and forgot about it. Until about a week ago. I picked it back up, and I think it was meant for me to do so.

I rarely talk about my relationship with God on this blog. But I will today... just because my relationship with God is now going to coincide with my relationship with food and my weight loss journey.

Someone suggested this book to me in the comments section of my blog a while back, and then my friend bought it for me after I mentioned it several times. I ready the reviews, and it seemed like it would be profound. You see, my relationship with God has been an area of my life that I HAVE been working on during the past year. I am back in church, and have found a lot of friends and support there. For someone like me, having that kind of lifeline has been great. I basically have no family, and very few friends. So my church family is a big part of my life and my children's lives.

But before reading this book, I never really thought about leaning on a higher power for help with my weight loss journey. But I will now. I have officially asked the ladies in my Sunday school class to pray for me about this, and now I am putting it on here to make it official.

Chapter 6 of the book is titled, "Growing Close to God", and it really spoke to me. To the core.

"(this journey) is about learning to tell myself no and learning to make wiser choices daily. And somehow becoming a woman of self-discipline honors God and helps me live the godly characteristic of self-control."

"...when food is what Satan holds up in front of us and says, "You'll never be free from this battle. You will always bounce from feeling deprived when you're dieting to feeling guilty when you're splurging. Victory isn't possible. You aren't capable of self-control with food," we must see that its inappropriate consummation can be his lure to draw our heart into a place of defeat."

"I need power beyond what I can find on my own."

"Food can fill our stomachs but never our souls."

"...if we find that certain foods are impossible to walk away from...we can't or won't deny ourselves an unhealthy choice in order to make a healthier choice...then it's a clue we are being ruled by this food on some level."

Do you get the drift?

I have felt my brain changing, and I am already making better choices. I am not "back on plan", but I am getting there. I am ready to commit to making positive changes, even if it's just steps in the right direction. I am basically undertaking a spiritual and physical journey at the same time, and that thought is still scary to me. I now see clearly that it's Satan that tells me over and over that I can't get to my destination in either journey. But if I've learned anything, I've learned that Satan is a liar.

I can't count the people in my life that are just waiting for me to fail. Fail at being a good mom. Fail at my career. Fail at maintaining my household. Fail at being happy. Fail at being healthy. Sometimes it seems that everyone wants me to fail, and I let those thoughts play with my head. Sadly, because my own mother is one of my biggest critics, I have had a negative self-image and outlook about myself and my abilities for a long time.

I have made the decision to stop letting these people win! I fight so hard in every other aspect of my life, so now it's time to start fighting for my health. And really, it IS about health at this point. I will never have a bikini-perfect body. I don't even want to be skinny anymore. I want to be healthy, and I want to show my children that they can be healthy, too. Spiritually, mentally, and physically healthy.

It's time for me to believe in myself, and believe that God can help me get ANYWHERE I want to be. It's time for me to change the plan.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Unmotivated...

I have been avoiding my blog like the plague. Honestly.

In blog land, when a blogger doesn't post for a while, it usually means they have fallen off the weight-loss wagon. In my case, that's exactly what has happened.

I don't know why, either.

I joined Weight Watchers, and I don't think I made it to the two-week mark. I have been unmotivated.

I have tried to figure out why... but I don't really have an excuse.

Yes, I am tired. Toward the end of summer school last week, I could feel exhaustion setting in. We only had a 3-day break from the last day of school and the first day of summer school. Summer school was only 3 weeks long, but it still takes effort. Along with all the other stuff that I have to do.

Yes, I like to eat. I have been eating out WAY too much. And I have been eating WAY too much of the wrong foods.

Yes, I am lazy. In my spare time, I am lazy as hell. I don't want to go work out. And I haven't even been to to pool in a week or so. It's been rainy and cloudy for a week or so, and it's been no problem for me to stay in my room and Facebook or watch TV during my down time.

Yes, I know I have to get my butt in gear. I still have Weight Watchers for another 2 months or so. I have also thought about doing Isagenix again. Or low carb. Or Medifast. But all I know right now is that I have to do SOMETHING.

I have had a bad upset stomach since Sunday morning. At first I thought it was something I ate. Then I thought it must be a virus. But for four days? Maybe my body is telling me it's had enough bad food to last a lifetime and that I have to get back on track. I am just unmotivated. And I hate feeling this way.

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Weight Watchers and Swimming

First off... I don't know what happened to my last blog post. Blogger has been having so many issues lately... but I know I have blogged since 5/19!

Life is finally slowing down and it's starting to feel like summer!

School was out on May 28, but I started teaching summer school on May 31. I will do summer school until June 17, so it's only 3 weeks. And the money is great for only 3 hours a day.

My birthday was great. I ate a lot, but didn't go too crazy. And I really enjoyed myself. It was worth taking a diet detour.

But now, it's back to business.

I am officially back on Weight Watcher's as of yesterday. My bff and I joined the online program together. I still plan on drastically reducing my carb intake (because I know it works), but I figured that Weight Watchers could definitely give me a tracking system and accountability. I mean, it's definitely worked for me in the past.

I have to admit that I like the new program. Having all fruits and veggies as zero points is great. It also looks like you are able to bank your activity points, too. All I know is that I am willing to give it my best shot this summer.

Another HUGE thing has happened that might help me with my weight loss. I am learning how to swim!

On Friday, my bff went to the pool with me and the kids and started trying to help me learn to swim. Before Friday, I have always been TERRIFIED of water. As long as my feet can touch and I am in control I am okay, but otherwise I am so scared of drowning. Well, on Friday I learned how to float on my back... all by myself! No floaties, lol!

And let me tell you, the feeling was exhilarating! So yesterday, I went back to the pool to practice some more.I am now able to swim on my back, and I can go backwards and forwards, lol. I don't know if this is really counted as swimming, but hey, it was awesome for me! And such a workout! After doing 1.5 laps, my arms, legs, and abs were so sore! But I felt so great. It's definitely going to be something I try to improve on this summer!

I feel very positive right now, and I think that this summer will definitely be a time to rest and focus on me. It's about time!

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Manic May

Sorry no blog post for a week, but as usual, life is crazy.

The end of the school year is here... only 5 more days with students and two inservice days to go! Tomorrow is field day, so I am trying to get things together for that.

On the weight loss front...

I am still trying hard. My goal right now is to do the best I can to stay low-carb, and I am literally taking it meal by meal. There are so many parties, celebrations, and potlucks it is so hard to just say no to EVERYTHING. To top it off, I am going out of town this weekend, and then my birthday is next week (and I plan on celebrating BIG this year). But so far, my weight has remained steady. I have gained about 1/2 lb, so not bad. Overall, I am still eating much less carbs than normal for me. And I feel so much more conscious about my food choices.

Yesterday, we had a potluck at school, where I gave myself permission to eat what I wanted, including dessert. Out of habit, I put about 3 different desserts on my plate... and only ended up eating one! Everything tastes so sweet now, it was just *enough*. And I didn't feel the need to keep stuffing the rest in my mouth. Being able to make that choice feels good. It feels very "real life"... I would love to be at goal weight one day and still be able to enjoy dessert every now and then.

I also received a blog award the other day from Chrissy... Thanks! I never follow blog award rules... sorry... but I am so appreciative!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Day 15 - Cheater, cheater

It's funny how within two days I go from being a WINNER to a CHEATER.

I really hate myself sometimes... well, I hate the way I sabotage my own success when it comes to weight loss. I finally got under 300 lbs and of course, I have to find a way to ruin it.

I cheated today, and I don't even have an excuse for why. I can blame my co-workers birthday, but it wouldn't really be fair. I made the decision - no one forced me. I could have blamed it on work stress, but hell, I always have work stress!

All I know is that I need to get focused. I have been doing too well to mess up now. I still have two weeks until my birthday, so I need to get it in gear if I am going to get into those jeans!

Tomorrow is back to NO CARB. I am just going to have to tough it out until I get back into my zone. If I don't get it together now, it's going to be as hard as it was the first time and that sucks.

Maybe I'm not ready for "real life" eating right now?

Monday, May 9, 2011

Day 15... #Winning

And the winners of the Now Eat This! Diet Cookbook are:

BrendaKay @ Little Rose Jacket

Sweetheartish  @ http://ohshenanigans.com/

Winners were picked using random.org. Please email me at skinnyhollie at gmail dot com with your contact information. Thanks

This has been such a busy weekend, with a lot of successes for me. I really feel like I am #winning. Warning... this is long.

Friday... I went to a friend's birthday party. Faced with party food, I did well. I ate a "sliver" of birthday cake, and almost had a panic attack. But it was ok. I felt good about my choices, and felt like at the end of my two-weeks I should be able to eat something sweet with no huge cravings. It was kind of a test... and I passed.

Saturday... Was a busy, busy day. I am pleased to announce that I am done with school. Saturday SHOULD have been my graduation, but I didn't get my fees paid in time to walk. But it still marked an important day for me. I now have my Master's of Art in Education. My best friend was graduating from another college, and her family had a big party planned. It was a taco buffet. I ate my taco meat with lettuce, tomato, and sour cream. I had a few corn tortilla chips with refried beans. And because of the cake sliver on Friday night, I skipped dessert.

I also would like to add that all day before the party I made good food choices. I left the house at 8:30 a.m. and didn't get home until 8:30 p.m. I packed food and water and made sure I was prepared.

Sunday... Let me first say that this is the absolute BEST mother's day I can remember having in recent years. My other bff, Max, also celebrated her birthday on Sunday, so after church on Sunday she took me and the kids out to eat. And I ate.

It was a conscious decision to eat what I wanted. I had only eaten a couple of scrambled eggs that morning, and I admit that hunger probably made my decision to ditch my diet a little easier. But I knew what I was doing.

I shared an entree with Max, and later enjoyed the gourmet cupcake my daughter bought me as a gift. And that was all I had to eat for the day. The carb/sugar influx put me to sleep as soon as we got home, then pretty much made me sick for the rest of the night. I had chest pains, stomach pains, and felt dizzy and tingly. It was scary to be so aware of the fact that my body was reacting to sugar in that way.

When I went to bed last night, though, I still felt successful. Even though I strayed from the rigid plan I had followed for the previous two weeks, I felt like I turned the page to "real life eating". Yes, I will continue to restrict carbs. But when holidays and special occasions arise, I will enjoy myself without freaking out about food.

Because of this weekend, I have decided to go back to Phase 1 for another week before going on to Phase 2. Today has been a success. Going back to low-carb hasn't been hard at all. It almost seems more like "normal" eating than eating sugar and carbs did yesterday. Honestly, I am glad to get that stuff out of my system!

My birthday is May 26, and I think this weekend has helped me put to rest a lot of anxiety that I've had about how I will eat on that day. I know what I did right this weekend, and I know what I would do different. I am learning, therefore I feel like a winner. I am still ON TRACK and very happy about the progress I've made.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Day 10... Awards!

I have recently received two blog awards...

The first from Kathy...


And the second one is from The Skinny Doll...


Both awards have rules to spread the love, but because I am wiped out from a super-stressful days, I am going to pass both these awards on to all the people who follow and support me on this journey. You guys have kept me going for almost three years. I appreciate the love!

The scale said 300.8 again this morning, so I guess it's still 15.4. I had very little to eat today - not on purpose, but because I was so busy and stressed. That will either mean good things or bad things on the scale tomorrow...

But the great thing about today is that with all the stress and emotions I went through today, NOT ONCE did I feel like binging. The vending machine, or the goodies left over in the teacher's lounge were NOT calling my name. I actually FORGOT to eat until lunch, and then I had a salad instead of the Olive Garden that was being served in the teacher's lounge. And since I forgot my protein, it was just a salad that consisted of veggies. I kept trying to remind myself to grab a boiled egg or a piece of cheese, but I kept getting preoccupied.

I finally at at dinner. Tonight is church night, and I stuck with the salad bar and some lean roast beef. The chocolate cake that was sitting out for dessert didn't phase me at all.

Good news... I got rehired to teach next year in the same school where I teach now. That is a blessing.

Until tomorrow!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Day 9... Conquering Temptation

First... I have extended my cookbook giveaway. You now have until Friday to comment on THIS LINK.

I am on day 9 and still cheat-free. I haven't had over 20 carbs daily and haven't enjoyed a soda since April 24. And I am so proud of me!

Each day gets a little easier to say no, but today I was just bombarded by temptation. It's teacher appreciation week, so our wonderful PTO is providing food and treats all week. Today was a breakfast spread.

I sent my Ed. Assistants to scope things out before I went, just to see if there was anything I could eat. They came back and said there were a variety of meats and cheeses, so I went down there. Right there on the table where the plates were were several open boxes of Dunkin' Donuts. I LOVE donuts... any kind! They are always my weakness. But not today.

Man, there was some really delicious food on those tables. It was everywhere! But I got some pork loin and ham and cheese cubes and enjoyed those instead. I actually got so full that I ended up skipping lunch. I didn't feel hungry and got really busy. I didn't even realize I had skipped a meal until after it had happened.

Then this afternoon we had a Parent Night where we served pizza, cookies, and soda to the parents and students that attended. I also love pizza... it's definitely another weakness. But I didn't touch a thing. I even brought some leftover cookies to my kids. Yeah, they looked and smelled good. But I didn't want any.

When I turned down pizza tonight, a co-worker told me, "Just eat a piece. It won't kill you." I kindly told her that I was choosing not to eat that pizza because I have better plans for me and my waistline! It might not kill me, but it will keep me fat. I am tired of being fat.

I am still weighing daily. Yesterday I stayed the same. But today, my scale (which is normally very accurate) was all over the place! I was so uspet. So I jumped on my older scale just to see what it said, and the number was LOVELY. It said 299.8. That number won't count because I want to stick to the scale I started with, but that number looked so good to me. I can't wait to really be under 300 lbs again, and I know I am SO CLOSE. My official scale last had me at 301.6. Today it was 300.8 a few times, but then kept saying 301.6. Either way, I know I am close. I will keep going until I get there!

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Day 7... What I eat...

Today I am 14.6 lbs down since Monday! I am officially 2 lbs away from my first goal weight... to be under 300 lbs again. And it feels so good to be so close!

On my Facebook page and in real life, people keep asking me what I have been eating this past week. Well here are the basics:

I am basically following Phase 1 of the South Beach Diet. I have cut carbs from my diet. All carbs except those found in salad greens and ranch salad dressing. SBD phase 1 allows low-fat milk and yogurt, and few other sugar-free sweet treats, but I choose not to eat those things.

I also gave up sodas last week. I still allow myself unsweet tea and coffee, but I don't drink much.

I drink between 100 - 120 oz of water daily.

Exactly what I am eating? Eggs, cheese, tuna, chicken breast, turkey bacon and salad greens... and that's basically it. In lots of combinations, lol. Yes, it's boring, but it's easy for me. I am satisfied, and I feel like I am in a "safe zone".

My cravings are under control for the first time in... ???? I don't even remember when. I figure that after one more week of eating this way, my body will be ready to start introducing those "good carbs" that they outline for Phase 2 of SBD. Honestly the only thing I am already looking forward to is the ability to eat some fruit. And maybe some oatmeal. Since I am not craving carbs right now, I have this strange contentment that is foreign to me. Since about Thursday of last week, my world doesn't revolve around food anymore.

I have been to the grocery the past two days, and I have passed by sweets and foods that I would normally covet. I have been able to walk right past them with little to no effort. Yes, I might still wish I could have it, but it doesn't make me upset anymore. I am in control.

I can't wait to see what next week brings.

Don't forget that tonight is the last chance to comment for my giveaway!

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Day 6... Feeling good!

Don't forget to enter my contest! Click HERE if you wanna win a cookbook! You have until Sunday night to comment, and I will announce a winner on Monday.

Today is day 6 of my shot at going no/low carb. I haven't cheated even ONCE. I have had about 120 oz of water per day. The only carbs I am eating are in the veggies I eat.

And guess what? I feel good.

I am not hungry anymore, and the cravings are all but gone. My brain still tells me sometimes that I want something else besides what I am eating, but I am in control. I know I can do this for another week.

Best part? As of today I have lost 12.6 lbs. In 6 days.

I finally got my South Beach Diet book back from a friend that borrowed it, and after reading it again, I think this is the plan I am going to follow after my two weeks are up. I was kinda thinking about Atkins, but its so restrictive I don't think I will stick with it forever. And I'm in this forever.

The foods I am eating are on the SBD phase one list. The only things on the list that I am NOT eating are low-fat milk and yogurt and sugar-free popsicles and sugar-free jello. I am not really interested in having milk or yogurt, and I think that popsicles or jello would be a slippery slope for me right now. They are too much like the sugary, sweet treats I am trying to break myself of. Right now I am truly trying to change my behavior. I can feel it working, too.

I went to the store today and even though I looked longingly at the ice cream and the Cadbury eggs that have been discounted to .25 each, I didn't really "want" them. I mean, in the past, I would wait until the Cadbury eggs went on sale after Easter and stock up on them. I would buy 20 at a time. But now, I know that I don't need them. They're not worth it.

My scale is moving more than it has in the long time. I know the weight loss will slow down, but right now, it's a huge motivator.

My goal right now is to make it through this weekend. I have made it through a work-week, I have made it through church dinner... not I just need to prove to myself that I can make it through a weekend at home. I think I can do it :)

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Day 3... Still low-carb!

Today is the 3rd day of being carb-free (or low-carb). The only carbs I had today were in the form of lettuce, 3 slices of a small tomato and about 3 slivers of bell pepper. I also had 2 tbs of ranch dressing (2 carbs) on each salad that I had for lunch and dinner. I am hopeful that I didn't go over my allotted 20 carbs, but these choices are still better than they could have been.

Today, a co-worker made a subway run. I ordered a salad and used my own dressing. The salad was good, but for $6 a waste of money. And then for dinner...

It was church night. And we all know that I struggle with eating on church night, and I alway allow myself to indulge. But not tonight.

I looked at the menu ahead of time, and the main meat was pulled pork bbq. Since there is always a salad bar, I planned on adding pork to my salad and bringing my own salad dressing (in case theirs was too high in sugar). When I got to church, I saw the pork was DRENCHED in bbq sauce. I should have known.

SO, I improvised. I had spring mix lettuce with cheese, boiled eggs, abt 1 tbs of ham and a sprinkle of sunflower seeds (0-2 carbs). And that's it. No dessert. No tastes of anything else. I did the unthinkable... I was in control.

Today seemed "a little" easier, so hopefully I am getting over a hump. The cravings are still strong. I feel like something is "missing". I miss sugar, and still want it. But I also want to be healthy. I also want to NOT be fat anymore.

I was down another 3 lbs this morning, for a total of 8 lbs in two days. If I fluctuate up in the morning, I will know I had too many veggies today and I will not be upset. This is all part of the process. I've never done this type of thing before. For the first time in my life, I have given up carbs for three days, when I haven't lasted 3 hours in the past.

It will be interesting to see what tomorrow brings!

And don't forget to enter my giveaway (posted yesterday).

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Day 2... Still in the game.

1st... I just posted a giveaway HERE. Check it out!

2nd... Thanks for all of the positive feedback in the comments. I NEED that right now.

Today was tough. The cravings were hard, and the temptation is just overwhelming. Today there was CAKE in the cafeteria, and I could SMELL it. I couldn't even look at it when I walked by. I feel like a crack addict trying to detox while living in a crack house...

By the time I got off work, I had a headache and didn't feel well at all. After a short nap and a few Ibuprofen, I was ok. I had a good dinner, and I feel ok before I go to bed. I have had about 120 oz of water and a glass of unsweet tea. The only carbs I've had were in the form of iceburg lettuce, a few chunks of tomato, and a few pieces of broccoli in my lunch salad. No cheats, no soda.

Last night I mentioned that I was hungry before bed, and someone commented that I was punishing myself. I might need to clarify that I wasn't actually "hungry". I only "felt" hungry. My mind tells me one thing right now, but my body tells me something different. This is TRULY a head-game right now.

Someone also mentioned that no-carb/low-carb is unhealthy. Yeah, I used to tell myself that, too. But in the research (and I've done a lot) I've done on sugar and low-carb diets, I have learned that for some people being carb-free is okay. Honestly, I won't be carb-free forever... I just have to go through this because I NEED to be SUGAR-FREE forever. Eventually, I will be able to eat fruit, veggies and whole grains in moderation. But for now, no.

I feel like I need to REALLY detox to get on track and to get over this addiction. I have to lose over 100 lbs... I have a lot of time to adjust and tweak this plan.

Oh, did I mention that I lost 5 lbs my first day on the plan? Sure, it was water weight, but it sure felt good to see the scale move already!

Now Eat This! Giveaway!

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