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Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Plan B

Today was good. I worked out at the gym today... 17 minutes on the elliptical until my co-worker got there. Then we did 30+ minutes on the stationary bike. I am TIRED. But working out 2 days in a row feels good.

I ate well today. Not sure of the calories since I didn't journal. :(

I got off on the wrong track this morning. I was running late and wasn't prepared. I threw some tuna salad that I'd made on Sunday in my lunch bag with some crackers. I ended up eating that for breakfast and skipped lunch. I NEED to get my butt in gear and prepare at night.

SO, with that said, I went to the grocery tonight. I got frozen meals (easy to grab and go). I remembered that I have some packets of oatmeal that would be easy to grab for breakfast. I have plenty of yogurt. And I got lettuce for salads and some grapes. I always lose weight when I eat at least one salad every day. My workout buddy reminded me of that today.

Looking back on my food last week, I did realize that I am not getting enough fresh fruits and veggies. I will try to get them in this week as much as possible. I also need to increase my water a little bit. AND I will commit to pack my lunch the night before.

Part of my struggle, too, is depression. I am feeling so low right now. I put on a brave face, but inside I am crying my eyes out. I have support... but not in person. I have blog friends, and Facebook friends. I have co-workers and church friends, but no one close. I have real-life friends, too, but I feel very detached from them lately... maybe because they don't live close? Their lives don't seem to match up with mine now-a-days. I am just sad and overwhelmed. I hate this feeling.

Tomorrow is a new day, and hopefully I have set myself up for a successful day tomorrow. I HAVE to succeed.

20 comments:

Trish said...

I know YOU will SUCCEED!!!

MOM GETS_FIT said...

Hollie,
Love your new picture. By the way I think I'm on like plan C. The ups and downs are tough, but please know you are not alone. Sounds like you had a great workout. You are truly inspiring to me.
http://momgetsfit.blogspot.com/

LeAnna said...

*hugs* Sening a big hug your way! I totally agree with the fruits and veggies plan. One of my goals this week is to up my veggie intake.

alisonds said...

Well done on the exercise and reviewing your food. i am terrible for doing my lunch in the morning and ending up with odd collections of things!

What about trying to make some friends at the gym? It'll take a wee while to build up a great relationship but at least you'll have some people around who live close and have some heathy goals to spur you on?

Stay strong, you can do it! x

Need to Get ME Back said...

Planning ahead makes sure a big difference. You doing fine and at least you realize that feeling down leads to eating more. That way, you can walk away once you're aware.

I wrote a blog about emotional eating you should check out, maybe it'll shed some light :)
http://needtogetmeback.blogspot.com/2011/02/problem-emotional-eating.html

Judson Family said...

Falling is not Failing!! You will succeed!!!Watch the sodium in the Frozen meals!!!

Lauren said...

Hi Hollie,

I'm not sure if you're religious, but a friend of mine operates a blog about her spiritual journey. She lost her husband to a tragic accident last year and has been blogging ever since. Her passage this morning was ‎2 Corinthians 4:16-18. I'm not going to post it on here because it's pretty long, but just look it up on Google. Maybe that can give you some guidance and peace inside. :) You're looking great, though! Keep up the awesome work - you'll reach your goals sooner than you think!!!

www.firstandfitmost.blogspot.com

Donna ((Sweet Momma)) said...

Eating more fruits will help with the depression... they have the stuff inside that are like natural "happy pills". Really - it works.
Besides that - I know EXACTLY how you feel. Having a son with special needs plays havoc with my dieting... especially because I am a stress eater. Just remember. Even if plan B doesnt work... you have a whole alphabet ahead of you. :) (((HUGS)))

BrendaKaye said...

I know it is so hard for me too, to try to keep up with everything when I feel overwhelmed. You really have a lot of responsibility on your plate, and you are still recovering from your surgery too! I am praying for strength and encouragement for you today!

James Lundy said...

Hollie, It's really difficult to change sometimes. Because we are afraid of the unknown. The best thing you could do is believe in yourself, and your ability and desire to change for the better. Then in your mind you know where you want to go, and you're not facing the un-known. James Lundy http://www.tinyurl.com/febree

kathyj333 said...

Sometimes you just have to regroup. You've been through a lot. Give yourself time to get used to the ways things are now—and time to heal.

Crys said...

Do you need me to come to Nashville to pack your lunch? I know exactly how you feel. I went through this BIG TIME in Chicago. You have a big life, lots of stuff going on... you need a support system. All I can say is keep facing ahead.

Miriam said...

I totally know what you mean by losing weight when you eat one salad everyday. I've been doing that 90% of the time, and I really have been seeing improvements... not to mention I just feel better. Also, packing lunches in advanced especially for work is HUGE. If I don't do that, I end up completely binging on junk food during my (usually long) shifts... I'm enjoying your blog!

Imperfect Perfection said...

Stay strong because you will make it through all of your trials.... Keep on truckin' because you are never alone!

Shrinkella said...

Just take it one day at a time and keep your head up. It sounds like you are doing great!

BeKay said...

I have depression too. I don't think anybody really understands how alone and down one feels except another person who deals with it. I will keep you in my prayers. My motto is when I feel really at the bottom there is only one way left to go...up.

Kim said...

I have a hard time lunch. I will bring a frozen lunch, and the people at work will end up ordering that sounds so good. I order with them. I know that I should not do that, and that really needs to change. It is great that you have a buddy at work.

Wendie said...

I know exactly how you feel. You are really doing such a great job and you look fantastic. I know, this isn't the same as having someone in person to support you and wow you and be there for you, but it is what we can do. You are an inspiration and a source of strength.

Mrs. Q said...

I hope you are feeling better it is always good to have someone you can call and talk to or even go out with every once in a while as we get older we do tend to grow out of some of our old friends but just look at it as you making room for new friends that you will be able to relate to keep working hard to meet your goal and pray for the sadness to go away it always help me when I pray and sometimes I even have to cry to get some form of healing. Mrs Q

chantel said...

Holli, I read your blog and boy I't's a struggle cause you wanna look and you want it to happen right now, i'm going through the same thing with the scale I'm like would you move i don't think the scales are always right. But anyway keep up the good work, and don't give up as i will follow you. I will check back to see what happens next.