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Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Day 15 - Cheater, cheater

It's funny how within two days I go from being a WINNER to a CHEATER.

I really hate myself sometimes... well, I hate the way I sabotage my own success when it comes to weight loss. I finally got under 300 lbs and of course, I have to find a way to ruin it.

I cheated today, and I don't even have an excuse for why. I can blame my co-workers birthday, but it wouldn't really be fair. I made the decision - no one forced me. I could have blamed it on work stress, but hell, I always have work stress!

All I know is that I need to get focused. I have been doing too well to mess up now. I still have two weeks until my birthday, so I need to get it in gear if I am going to get into those jeans!

Tomorrow is back to NO CARB. I am just going to have to tough it out until I get back into my zone. If I don't get it together now, it's going to be as hard as it was the first time and that sucks.

Maybe I'm not ready for "real life" eating right now?

25 comments:

safire said...

I have such difficulty for social eating sometimes because all the food spread out before me... I tend to nibble :)

Today is not going to undo all the hard work you have accomplished! Get back on plan tomorrow (that's normally how I approach it!)

Laura said...

We all have the days where we give in, then we feel guilty! I did the same today.
All I can tell you is, tomorrow is a new day and you can start again. The key is acknowledging the problem and correcting it.

Cinny said...

keep on moving forward...eating in public can be VERY hard...sometimes you dont have control over your food like you would if you planned out your meal at home...this is my first time viewing your blog and i hope we can be a blessing to each other...feel free to check out my blog as well...:)

Verity Vaudeville said...

Try to chalk it up to an error of judgment. Dwelling over how you could have done it differently, or what it says about your commitment to a healthier lifestyle, will only sabotage you further.

We all crash and burn, the lesson is to dust yourself off and carry on regardless. That takes real strength.

fatboy kris said...

I think cheating is bound to happen when you have hard restrictions on certain food items. Desire will build and build until, boom ...EAT IT! You're only human, after all.

You know this, but everyday is a new day and every challenge you face is a new opportunity to succeed. There is no benefit to being upset with yourself about the past, just move forward.

...I may me talking to myself here, by commenting on your blog. ;)

alisonds said...

the most important thing is to put it behind you and start fresh tomorrow. 1 day won't ruin everything. Don't be too hard on yourself. x

Rachelle said...

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BrendaKaye said...

You are still a winner! It is a journey and every day is not always perfect! For me the danger is once I go off my plan, sometimes I have a hard time getting back on the plan. I am with you on not handling sugar or real food well. Don't be too hard on yourself because it is so addictive; it is a tough battle! I prayed for you during my morning walk. You are a winner!

John said...

Weight loss diet cheating is normal and good for the inner being. I now weigh 165lbs, down from 240lbs. I found giving myself breaks twice a week gave me more power to lose more weight. Its not about fighting your inner being which causes failure, its about what makes you thrive to lose weight. Don't consider it cheating, consider it a prize and feel good about yourself while you are losing weight. But one thing, a break twice a week is not eating three pieces of chocolate cake! only raise your calorie intake on these two days by 20% and feel good about it, not bad!

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Curvy Diva said...

It was only one day and that is ok. I know you want to stay on track and that is possible but you can't beat yourself up for one day. This is a lifestyle change and not a quick fix. Sometimes we all fall off the program but it is best to just get up and keep pushing towards our goals. I know that you will be successful so just keep up the good work.

Peace and Blessings

LivinLarge said...

I agree with John, don't call it cheating, and definitely don't see it as a failure. Unfortunately we see weight loss (or anything that we're working toward) as a journey that should only have one direction along a straight line, but this mentally sets us up for failure. There isn't a person whose fought to lose weight that hasn't gained a bit back after vacation or a holiday. There isn't a successful person who spent every single day excited about exercising and saying no to dessert. Last night I had a craving for sugar (a big no-no for every type of diet). I lost 2.5 lbs last week, at very well yesterday and even had a low-cal, sugar-free fudgecicle, but I still wanted sugar. So, I pulled out the real ice cream and had some. My man kindly reminded me that this wasn't a part of my diet, and I told him not to monitor me, that I was fine, and I am. Did I have a weak moment or am I just a human who wanted something sweet at the end of the day? Both are the same, it's just how we look at it. You wanted something different, so you indulged. Now you can continue with your healthier eating plan. Think of it as just that: continuing. You didn't fall off track, you didn't stop and go backwards. This was a choice along your overall weight-loss path, and it's OK. Stop punishing yourself. You are amazing!!

Journey back to SKINNY ME! said...

don't beat yourself up over one day of cheating......a little cheat here and there will keep you from binging.

The Passionate weight watcher said...

Maybe you need to be doing real life eating to see how to manage your eating habits. It only feels like cheating when you deprive yourself and diet instead of looking at it from a lifestyle change point of view. Dont beat yourself up!

Yum Yucky said...

I indulged in pizza and buttery bread this weekend. Did I need it or plan on doing that? Nope. But I worked hard all week, so it's not cheating. Just keep working hard, Hollie. :)

Sha said...

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Healthy Families said...

I agree with the others! It's only one day and it's okay to indulge on occasion. Don't look at how much cake you ate, look instead at how far you've come toward meeting your weight loss goals. If you always focus on the positive, you will get positive results. Just write it off as a "treat day" and get back on track with your weight loss efforts.

As Henry Ford once said, "whether you believe you can or you can’t, you are right!" So always look at the positive and always know that you can and will meet your goals.

C. Flowers
HealthyFamiliesGuide.com

Donovan said...

You are a winner, Hollie. How do I know? You don't give up on yourself and your dreams. You will stumble and fall along the way, but, as long as you pick yourself up and get back on track, you're a winner in my book.

One other point. If you are eating and exercising properly as a part of your daily life, the occasional birthday party will not derail your success train.

I still believe in you and respect you for your determination and effort.

Don
Senior Health and Fitness

Debbie Magill said...

Everyone has off days Hollie! Don;t lose hope!

Debbie.x

ShrinkingMom said...

I always feel bad when I cheat, but in what fantasy land do we live thinking its not normal? Besides, I have had some of my best weigh ins after cheat days! Keep on keepin' on!

Muyi Ogunseye said...

Hello Hollie! Your blog is definitely interesting and I am very excited for you on your journey to lose weight. I feel your decision to have that cake was not a bad move. Like everyone said, you can definitely treat yourself now and then. Apart from working out and dieting, have you tried any herbs and supplements? If you are interested and want to learn more, please visit http://www.meta-ehealth.com/site/office/index.jsp?id=002590 . Thanks

Adam said...

The most important thing is not letting one day lead to the next day. On my journey I have had many derailments, in fact right now I'm struggling to hit my next goal. I keep getting so close and then seem to run out of gas. Tomorrow is another day, keep up the great work and get back to feeling like you should, a winner!

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seamah2004 said...

Please what ever you do don't beat yourself up.It only makes things worst hang in there.The other day I weighed myself and I tipped the scale at 286 pounds an all time high for me. I'm scared and embarrassed and feel like I let my girls down.But I will get pass this with a little help from my new blog friends.This is my first time stopping by your blog Ive heard so many good things about it.

Peace Love and Light

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